Not giving up even when I give in!

Aug 01, 2012

Since my last visit to OH I'm back up several more lbs. It is really depressing and it just continues to reinforce my conclusion that my Doc should have been a brain surgery. 

I recently returned to his support group and the old pains of being shoved out as leader by the old Bariatric Coordinator are still too painful. I don't handle rejection very well and I feel like not only did she reject me but the people I thought were my friends, even Doc, turned their back on me and supported her decisiion. She eventually quit the job and all the good things I started with the group were all gone.

I was passionate and invested in the patients, my fellow travelers and it felt like I was exiled. Partly my own pride and wounded ego but the other was not imagined....out of sight, out of mind as the old adage goes. It hurt a lot. I'm no longer angry but I don't trust the people who I once called my friends and support.

I feel alone with my WLS and my now daily struggle to get back on track....so I've come back to where I started....here.

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