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Hello everyone. I haven't been here in a while and I missed you all. I have had a hard month, i won't get into the specifics here but I will say I gained back all the wight I lost plus 3 lb. But it is a new year and my new years resolution is to loss 100lb by next year. How have you all been doing?

O.K. today is my one week anaversary of oa. I have 3 days of abssenens under my belt. Not three days in a row but three days non the less. I have lost a grand total of 7lb in this one week, wich I think is pretty cool. I am felling a lot better about oa this time around. I'm working the program and talking, and meeting people. I just have to start calling my sponser everyday. I only called her on the days I did well and just glossed over the days I did not so well. But, I am doing good and so far am very prowed of my self. YAY ME!

This is a poem I wrote in sociology class. The assignment was to write a short poem with every line begin with I am and describe who you are. I was having a hard time with it and thin all of a sudden this came out. It wasn't exactly the assignment but it gets the point across.

I Am Poem
I am gluttony in all its glory.
I am to be gazed upon in wonder and horror.
I am corpulent, spectacular to behold.
I am trapped in my cage of flesh. I can not get free.
I am a product of excess, a casualty of greed, the result
of always wanting more.
I am that which I fear, that which I hate, that which I can't escape.
I am that which is pitted.
And I am a monster.

Well, yesterday was my first day of abstinence and I did awesome. I stuck to my meal plan, it was very difficult. I just wanted to eat, but I didn't. And when I wade myself in the morning I lost 4lb in 1 day. Not to shabby I think.
Today I'm doing just as well, I have stuck to my meal plain, but I need to start putting exercise into my daily routine. That's one of my goals. 
 
Here 's a question for the women of this site, Do any of you have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome? And did the surgery help at all?

I have decided to get a surgery done. I have know idea what one though. I know my insurance dosn't cover it though. I am looking into other options right now.

Hears another question, for all this time, Is anyone else hear a member of OA? 

OK. Today I called my sponsor and we set a meal plan, then I went grocery shopping. I did great. I stuck to my food list and did not get a single piece of junk. Some time after I got home, I had some potato chips. I felt bad about it, but it was only one slip and it was no were near like what I used to eat. So I packed my lunch and went to work not stressing about it very much. But then not more than 10 minutes ago I bought and ate 2 king sized Hershey bars and ate them both. I didn't even think of calling my sponsor until after. I am very upset with my self right now. I really want to lose weight. And if I do decide to get wls, it won't help me one bit if I can't learn to control my eating.

Today I started OA. It went well, I met some very nice people and found not one, but to sponsors. I got the welcome back packet and some books. Then when I got home a got a big bag of food from Del Taco and a bunch of mini donuts. What is wrong with me? Right now I have been apsenet for about 5 hours, But 5 hours is better than no hour. I really want to do this right this time. Tomorrow, (its to late now) I am going to call my sponsors and start working on the first step and set out a food plain and all that. wish me luck.
 

I actualy did pretty good for thanksgiving. I wasn't a saint or eanything, but I din't over lode my plat like I usualy do. The only thing was I ate most of the fuge that my mom put out for company, but come on, it fuge!. What was I to do? 
Tomarow I will be starting oa. I am nervuse because last time didn't work out very well, but I am trying not to think of that and think like this is my first time ever going. I am also a little mifft because it starts so early in the morning. 8:00 is early in the morning for me. This good news is that if it all works out I can go to a meeting sat, mon, and wen. Thats pretty good. 
My baby neice was born on thankgiving a very healthy 8lb 13oz.