My story...

Hmmm....

So long, yet I will keep it short to start with.

At 20 years I had my first child- which involved 6 months of bed rest... I sure you can guess the story! Yep, takeaways, binge eating, feeling sorry for myself, gaining tonnes of weight.  I almost doubled my weight in that time.

 I then had another child, then another and kept stress at bay by eating and eating until I was 33.  Then I decided enough was enough and stopped the binges, cut out the junk food and walked... in fact I walked alot further than I care to think about from then until now.

In the 'detox my life' stage I lost 115 lbs and gained my life back.  I have slowly and healthily eaten nutritous foods, limited junk food and maintained a 'normal' BMI with walking/ biking. 

Often I still feel like the 'fat' girl.  I feel a deep anger when people suddenly compliment me and treat me nicely NOW.  I am after all the same old me... just less wrapping.

I enjoy clothing, but have had to retrain my brain to try cute clothes on, the brain often laughs and whispers "As if YOU could wear that" like in the old days when I was obese.

Anyway, I have just met a plastic surgeon and am looking into 'fixing' the wrinkly baggy bits that llike to wobble alot to remind me of my weak binge days!  I am looking at escaping the skin with a bodylift, reclaiming some shape in the empty breast sacks with implants and maybe arms- but that one scares me.  My friends love to tell me I am 'too thin' 'anorexic' 'should stop losing weight'but in reality I am at the top of my BMI/weight range.   No set time frame, just waiting on the 'quote'.

Hope to chat with you all some time soon.

 

 

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