Frustrated and venting

Jun 20, 2011

Yesterday I ate under 700 calories (I measured and logged everything that went into my mouth.) I drank about 120 oz of fluids. I walked over 5 miles. I got over 75 grams of protein in. I did not eat any sugar or white flour. And I gained 2 pounds, how?

So frustrated. Yesterday, my goal was to do all clear liquids to start a pouch test, but I was so hungry in the late afternoon after walking so much I had to eat so I focused on protein for lunch and had some stir-fry mix with more protein for dinner. Makes me want to cry and give up.

I do see huge differences when I look at pictures; however, I don't see much of a difference in the mirror when I look at myself. I see myself as still grossly overweight and flabby. Yes, I have lost 100 pounds and I don't know how I will loose the other 60. When I get there am I still going to see myself as a fat blob, anyway?

I started working out at the gym this last week for the first time in years. I'm going slow (only doing 15 reps at a time and working out for only 30 minutes at a time), but muscles are still sore. I did go again this morning, but my heart wasn't in it after weighing in this morning and only worked out for about 20 minutes.

I realize I should have been working out all along and avoiding sugar/flour all along. Don't know how to get back to loosing.
Welp, thanks for listening to my vent. I need to adjust my attitude and get off my pity party.

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