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Its been 20 months since Gastric Bypass.  How life has changed.  I weighed myself today and I weigh 120 pounds.  Not good!!  I can't seem to gain weight.  I know the doc will say to add protein shakes, but I just do not like them.  I am going to try building some muscle.  Stop with the cardio for now, and build muscle.  I am hoping that will work. 

Life has been great.  I am so much more outgoing that I used to be.  It's strange.  I used to be the life of the party.  I felt I had to be when I was heavy.  Now, at a party I dont really say much.  It's strange.  I am more outgoing though.

I am really confused right now about my marriage.  I thought I would stay with this man forever, but now I have second thoughts.  He's a great man.  But he's a very jeoulous (SP) man.  I thought it would calm down, but it has only gotten worse.  I tried to tell him that I am with him and that he should feel good about that.  It didnt work.  He is also a big man, and he does not want to change.  I know that I cannot force him to change, but I do want him too.  I want him to be healthier, more active and all.  He likes the way he is.  The doc told him a few years ago that he would be dead in 10 years if he didnt do anything. I dont know if I can deal with that. 

Well it has been 10 weeks since my tummy tuck.  The doc was right about the scars looking horrible around the 3 month mark.  They do!!  They are purple right now.  Oh well, I know that it's temporary.  I am still putting bio oil on them too.  The hole has healed up nicely.  I think it took 3 weeks to heal up.  I went swimming for the first time the other day, at my sister's house.  OMG!!  Stomach muscles!!  They were hurting.  Doc said I can start working the ab muscles again. So, I am going to start doing that this week.  I am holding steady at 125 pounds.  My sister April said I looked anorexic.  I said that's funny, imagine what you look like.  She weighs 115 pounds and is the same height as me.  That shut her right up!!  HAHA!!  I am serioulsy considering getting my thighs and boobs done.  I didn't really want too, but I think I need to.  We will see.  I think I will wait at least a year for that.

Yesterday I went and saw the doc.  He saideverything looks great.  The hole is healing very nicely.  He said to keep it covered a few more days.  I can go swimming in a week, but not in a lake.  I am ok with that.  I have to go back to work tonight.  I thought I would be happy, but I am not.  It just started to feel like summer outside.  I want to enjoy whats left of it.

Went and saw  the doc today.  The nurse lady freaked me out.  She asked to see my hole.  When I showed her, she said it was green and that she hoped the doc put me on an antibiotic.  So I went and saw the doc.  I first showed him the stitches sticking it, got rid of those.  Then showed him my belly button.  Said don't worry it looks good and normal.  I don't know about that.  He did take a stitch out there too.  Then I was scared to show him my hole.  I showed him though.  I told him what the nurse said.  He said it was not infected and was not green.  However, if cleaned it out for me and asked what I was doing.  I told him I was trying to dry it out like he said.  He then said not to do that.  It needs to heal from the inside out.  Said to keep it covered and use ointment on it, and get in there and put the ointment inside with a q tip.  So no stitches on that.  I do feel so much better though.  He said if it gets worse to call him.  I am glad no more antibiotics, the last round gave me a yeast infection.  Also, glad it needs to be covered-no more ruining my clothes.  I get to go back to work on the 10th as planned.  I am happy about that.  I see him again on the 11th.  Will update then.  He said the hole will take about a month to close.

I go see the doc tomorrow.  I am so happy.  He can finally see this hole in my stomach.  My belly button looks horrible too.  Now next to my hole I started to bleed a little bit.  I think what it is, is my body rejecting the stitches, but we will see.  I am going to tell him too, that if this hole is not stitched up, that I cannot go back to work like this.  I am a dealer at a casino.  If it starts to ooze, its not like I can just go to the bathroom to take care of it.  I would have to wait for someone to come and tap me off my game, and that's if someone is available.  So, I don't know what I am going to do.  This sucks!!  I so want to go back to work.  I mean, I am enjoying my time off, but it's getting a bit boring.  I also need more money than what short term disability is paying me.  Will update more tomorrow.

It looks like the hole is starting to heal up.  I think.  It has stopped oozing for the most part.  Now I have a blister on my belly button.  Also, I have a slight infection where one of the drains was.  Thank god I see the doc on Tuesday.  He did have me on an antibiotic.  Other than that, I am doing very well. 

Recovery time for tummy tuck vs recovery time for RNY.

What a difference the two are.  It took me 3 1/2 weeks to feel normal with RNY.  It wasn't that bad tough.  I just needed to heal from the inside out.  However with this tummy tuck, it will be 3 weeks on Monday, and I am still hunched over.  Still oozing a bit.  I was depressed with the RNY, but this one is worse.  Because the actual tt surgery is a breeze.  The first 2 days, you feel like you are on top of the world.  Like you are amazed at how fast you are healing.  Well after the first 2 days reality hits.  You are sore.  This just sucks!!  All I want to do is cry.  I don't feel normal.  Can't wait until I do.  I just want to be normal again.  I have lost some more weight, which I didn't want too.  I am down to 123.  I didn't want to be down past 129.  Doc said it's just because of the surgery and that  I will bounce back.  Hopefully, that is true.  I am having a pity party over here. 

Well I had to call the doc today.  He said to call if I started to ooze.  Well I did last night, from the incision line.  It is gross!  It started around 5 pm.  It was oozing bad.  Alot!!  I was putting feminine pads on it.  That has more absorbancy and won't stick to the incision.  I went thru 2 of them by 1am.  So, I called the doc this am.  He said keep doing what I am doing, and to try to keep the area dry.  Yeah ok, not with it oozing like this.  He offered to put a bag on it, to catch all of the juices.  I said, I could live like this for a few days.  He said to take it easy today.  So far I have and the oozing has slowed.  NICE!!  He said its probably from when he took the drains out.  It stirred things up, and I got some fluid build up, that needs to come out.  It will find any hole to come out.  Well it did.  So, I guess it's a good thing that it is coming out.  I will say this though.  Since I have been oozing, I am not nearly as swollen as I was.  Another plus, I guess.

Saw the doctor today.  I got my last 2 drains out.  What a relief!!  It hurt again, and I cried again!!  One was still draining 25cc's. It felt like they were starting to attatch to my insides.  He really  had to tug on them.He said 2 weeks was long enough to have them in.  Also, he did not like the color of that one.  He thinks maybe I am getting an infection.  It had a sour odor to it too.  So he put me on an antibiotic.  What a difference though, not having those in.  As soon as he took them out, the burning stopped.

Oh yeah, I forgot... I am going to be in the OH magazine.  They liked my wow moment.  How cool is that!!

These drains suck!!!!!