Five more days til my new life begins!

Jan 08, 2009

It is so hard to believe the day is almost here.  I am such a bundle of mixed emotions right now.  i am really excited, and also really scared.  Scard of the unknown I guess.  We spent two weeks  in Disney World, so the time has flown by and all of a sudden I woke up and realized surgery was a week away.  WOW!

We go to Disney every year and this year was a really strange experience.  We have really long busy days there and walk at least seven miles a day.  By day five my feet were killing me in the evenings and sometimes my knees too.  I kept asking myself if this was the last time I would be in my favorite place on earth and deal with all that soreness at night?

I kept saying, as I looked at all of the healthy people areound me, that when we go back in October, I will be able to walk around feeling comfortable in my own skin and not worried that everyone is looking at the tall handsome athletic guy with the "big fat wife".    The theme for Disney in 2009 is "What will you celebrate?"  I definitely hope that I am celebrating at least a 100lb loss when we return!

I want to ride roller coasters that I have always been afraid to try and get on for fear that I wouldn't fit and be embarassed.  September 26th trip will definitely be a new experience for me for sure!

I feel so blessed right now to have such a supportive family and group of friends.  My husband is amazing and has held my hand all along this journey and will be with me in the hospital while my mom is here at home with my kids.  My good friend Erin, who went through this five years ago has been awesome and full of wonderful information.  She is amazing (and not just because her name is Erin  ;) )

The friends I have made on this site and their knowledge have been so valuable.  i feel like i am ready and have all the tools I need to start my transformation.  God has been so good to me and opened the doors and made it possible to have this surgery after only two months.  He is the reason all of this is happening and i am so thankful!

I have so much faith in my doctors and know I am in good hands. 

Let the ride begin!!!!!

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