I'm not dying....

Jan 12, 2009

I finally heard back from my PCP today about the anemia. She said I am low in iron and prescribed me to take Iron twice a day, which a glass of orange juice she said.   Then, they test me again in a month and see where I am. Does this bring me any closer to surgery?  I HAVE NO IDEA!  but, at least I now KNOW there has been things OTHER than fattness wrong with me all this time.  Something as simple as taking a vitamin has seemed to make my life a little bit easier to live.


last week, I hated walking. To walk down the hall in my campus, 4 hole classrooms distance, was escrutiatingly painfull. It felt like I had giant sandbags tied just above my knees and my hips didn't seem to work right. My knees would feel like they were going to buckle and it was like someone just smashed the tops of my feet with a crowbar. In a couple of feet I was out of breath and hoping to god noone saw the pain or fear in my eyes.

I haven't lost any weight, And I am nowhere near better. But today I walked around campus with my husband and I didn't even think about my legs. I didn't notice untill later, becouse I just truly forgot. I didn't struggle to move.  

Vit. D, Iron, getting in protein, sleeping at night with my cpap.   I'm a mess but maybe its all a start to getting better. Maybe tomorow I will get out of bed without wishing for death, and stand through my hole chemistry lab like everyone else.   Maybe I'll step on a scale and realise the changes I have been trying tomake have made a diference.  Maybe I'll have hope again.

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