Typical story of childhood obesity. Chubette clothes from the time I was 8. Graduated high school at 170. Twentysomething, Thirtysomething, fortysomething- 220's 240's.  Never gained a pound with either pregnancy.  I have been thinking of WLS for about 4 years.  I went thru heavy behav mod with counseling and it came down to absolutely knowing WLS is right for me. I was scheduled  Oct 2 and 3 days before the surgery it was canceled because the surgeon realized one of my tests wasn't up to par. So I had to have a retest with their dr and get rescheduled.  New Date is January 8, 2007.  

Things I want to do....
1. Live a healthy life for myself and my children.
2. Play a better game of hide 'n seek with my kids. They always find me because I can't hide behind anything!! hehe.
3.Teach my children healthy habits by example.
4.Ride my bike and not feel embarressed.
5.Feel good about a bathing suit.
6.Wear fashionable clothes for my age.
7.Be attractive/not a freak.
8.Run in my town's 5k race. Wow!!
9.Attract a special someone to share my love with.
10.Wear a sleeveless shirt. Haven't done that since I was 5.
11.Cross my legs.
12.Mount a horse with out the assist of 4 people.
13.Ride wild rides with my kids.
14.Have my first Wow moment.
15.Blood sugar under control without meds.
16.Cholesterol under control without meds.
17. Carpal Tunnel improved/gone.
18.Go on a beach vacation.
19.Row a boat with kids.
20.Weigh under 200.
21.Weigh under 150.
22.Learn to roller blade.
23.Ice skate.
24.Learn to ski.
25.Have a healthy relationship with food.
26.Fit in a tube at the water park.
27.Wear Mommy & me clothes with my daughter.
28. Hop into a pickup truck.
29.Buy clothes in non-big girl dept.
30.Be healthy.
31.Let my soul shine.
32.Love myself enough to stay healthy.

33. Have pics taken with kids.





This section was written days before my surgery.  Just a few short notes for my loved ones should the surgery not be a success.  I've decided to leave it here to remind myself how much my family means to me.  Look what I've gone thru in order to lead a healthy life for myself and them. 

For Shane and Olivia>>>>>>>>>>  If I should fall and end in Gods glorious land, know that you will be in good hands. I'll be watching over you. Love yourself, you are so special, be good to yourself and make good choices for yourself.  Remember the Golden Rule. Be confident in yourself. Persistance. Enjoy life, laughter can carry you thru, be happy, find goodness in everything. I'll be here to greet you when it's time. I Love you both so much.  This song is for the both of you even tho it only mentions a boy. I like the version sung by Susan Tedesci. Shane, remember we saw her in Princeton? Shane keep up on your artwork, I think you will find lots of enjoyment with drawing. Olivia, you are so colorful, full of life, keep it going with whatever you do.

Lord Protect My child, by Bob Dylan

For his age, he's wise
He's got his mother's eyes
There's gladness in his heart
He's young and he's wild
My only prayer is, if I can't be there,
Lord, protect my child

As his youth now unfolds
He is centuries old
Just to see him at play makes me smile
No matter what happens to me
No matter what my destiny
Lord, protect my child

While the world is asleep
You can look at it and weep
Few things you find are worthwhile
And though I don't ask for much
No material things to touch
Lord, protect my child

He's young and on fire
Full of hope and desire
In a world that's been raped, raped and defiled
If I fall along the way
And can't see another day
Lord, protect my child

There'll be a time I hear tell
When all will be well
When God and man will be reconciled
But until men lose their chains
And righteousness reigns
Lord, protect my child

For my Sister Donna, You've been nothing short of the best older sister a girl could have. I know you will continue to be the positive influence in Shane & Olivia's lives. Guide and love them. I love you.

For my Mother, who was always by my side. Thank you for your dedication and guidance.  God bless you. I love you. 

For Mike, we made the two most wonderful children together. What else can I say. Take it easy and you'll continue to be a good father. I'm sure you'll do the right thing. Don't spend all my money on cigarettes & lottery tickets!! hehe.



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south plainfield, NJ
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Aug 01, 2006
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