April will be 1 yr

Mar 13, 2008

It's been almost a whole year and I haven't lost 1 lb!!! What's wrong with me?

1 Year anniversary!!!

Jan 15, 2008

Sure doesn't feel like a whole year looking back. Sure the first month or so was tough with while nursing a wound infection. But what the heck I'm down 75 lbs and enjoying it.

Within the first 6 months I lost all the weight. Today I stand at 5'2'' and 175 lbs. Started at 250.

Geez, I'd really like to be normal weight.  I'll get there for sure.  

I can eat anything, but try not to over do it.  I'm health conscious.  I notice if I eat too fast or don't chew enough then I have problems.  Had only 2 dumping episodes over this past year. Whew!! they were bad.  Foamies about 5 times. But they are subsiding. 

I've got to post some new pictures.....
Plastic surgery?  I hope so. My kids are too truthful when they play with my turkey neck and bat wings. Hehe.

Letter I wrote

Sep 25, 2007

I came across a short letter I wrote while waiting in the waiting room to be called in for surgery prep.  It was written on Jan 8,2007.

I had all the right words to remind me why I did it. It's funny how I found it the other day tucked away in the back of my calendar day planner. But there it was a testiment to the determination I had and have to live a better fuller life.

I haven't been the best at working at what I should be doing nutrition wise or exercise lately. I have to take it more seriously. I am still down 70-75 lbs but I need to be down 115!! I'm still obese for my 5'2'' frame at 170.  I'd be really happy to see me and know what it is like to be 130.

It melted off so easily for the first few months. I've changed so many old bad habits to congratulate myself on. Now the hard work starts....Now its time to get tough.

6 months post op

Jul 26, 2007

July 8th was 6 months post op. I've been flip floping within 5 lbs for the month of July. I know protein intake and exercise are all that is going to save me if I want to make goal. I ask myself if I'm willing to live with these extra 35 lbs I have left to loose.  Geez I really don't think so.  It's still a health risk I don't want.   I'd love to make goal by my 1st anniversary.

I'm starting back to college!! I have to get my degree before my children ages 5 & 8 get theirs. Hehe. I'll take mostly online courses since I'm a full time mother and a full time computer programmer.

I've started taking more interest in the way I look the past few months. I've called it being vain but there is nothing wrong in wanting to look good.  I don't leave the house without makeup on anymore.  It's that drastic.



May 29, 2007

I'm obese but thank the Lord I'm not morbidly obese anymore. I'll have to get down to 165 to be slightly overweight. Then final goal is to be normal weight at 135.  Thank you again Lord.  


May 22, 2007

Today at the gas station I reached down to pull the lever to open the car's gas door latch which is located on the floor under the drivers seat.  I didn't have to open the car door and practically get out because my stomach was no longer in the way!!!!  

I can crunch my knee up to my chest to put socks on!!! 

I'm getting looks!!!  It makes me feel uncomfortable. But I think I'll get used to it. I'm such a feminist.

64 more to go

May 02, 2007

I have 64 more lbs to loose and I'm in such a stall right now. I've lost 55 lbs total. This past month I've bounded between 190-195 all month. I might come out loosing 4 lbs if that. 

So I started using fitday.com to help me sort out what's going on.  Once I get a weeks worth of data I'll make the appt to see my nutritionist again.   Something is going on. 

I don't want to be a size 16 forever. I want to be a 126 lb non obese person that I deserve to be.  And I need to be in order to starve off complications due to obesity.  

How did the weight come of so easily for 3 months then stop coming off?  Fitday will tell.

Learning everyday.

Apr 10, 2007

I've been finding in stressfull times that the old tapes are still playing in my head. Like 'stop in for a burger at McD's' on the way home. But of course the desire isn't there anymore. It's interesting that the tapes are still playing in my head.  

It's kinda like how they say men think of something sexual every 20 seconds or something like that. Well for me it's food every 20 seconds.  Or it used to be like that. It's starting to go away.  

The behavior modifications are built into the tool I'm living with now. I don't have the urge to eat things just because I think of them. The urge used to be about filling a void.  Food=love.  I'd pick up a nice treat so to speak, too many nice treats to stop the insanity of wanting.  I suppose coming full circle the more the tool helps me to be a healthier me the void will be gone. 

I'm getting clearer than ever about this.   

Patience my dear, patience.

Mar 15, 2007

I'm running low on patience.  For 3 weeks it seems the scale just won't budge much.  Sure I made it below 200! big accomplishment there. But this girl is into immediate satisfaction. I guess that is what got me into the mess of being morbidly obese. There must be a lesson to be learned here at every step.  It's part of the journey so that I can become aware  and make corrections and not go down that path again.  Take one day at a time, steady in the direction of my dreams.  Already I'm a winner and one day I'll wake up and it will be 1 year from now.  

3 mo Post Op

Mar 08, 2007

March 8!!!! It's my 3 mo birthday!!!

What a nice birthday present I gave myself.  I'm under 200!!! Yippee!! Haven't been under 200 in 25 yrs. Thank you Lord. 

I am really learning to take care of myself. Eating, drinking the right stuff.  The little devil on my shoulder who used to coax me into eating the wrong things is gone. Denial is bad, very bad.

Wound is still there but getting smaller.  I can't wait to take my pictures today and put them up in my photos section. 

I was looking at my bat wings and wrinkly neck.  Geez, it's like I'm concerned about this stuff now. I am actually taking an interest in myself.  Geez, I used to let it all hang out 50 lbs ago.  Its like I'm getting a healthy ego.

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south plainfield, NJ
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Aug 01, 2006
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April will be 1 yr
1 Year anniversary!!!
Letter I wrote
6 months post op
64 more to go
Learning everyday.
Patience my dear, patience.
3 mo Post Op