Evelyn K.

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I had to stop in a fashion bug today because I don't have much to wear to work. I was looking for some new skirts but they didn't have much. But what I did find was I fit into an 18/20 now!!!! Down from 26/28. Simply amazing.

I ate breakfast out recently with my daughter.  I was amazed how I put my napkin on my lap and it stayed there without slipping off. I was even more amazed when a piece of omlette fell onto my lap and directly onto the napkin!!!  I always thought quite foolish 40+ lbs ago when I would put a napkin on my lap but any piece of food which didn't make it into my mouth would just land on my chest!!! lol.

Also, I went shopping for a couple pieces of new clothes to go back to work. I couldn't believe I actually could see my collar bone!!!

Does a number mean anything? How about 37 lbs or BMI 39.3? Thank the Lord.  Its amazing. The surgeon said most people loose 10 % of their original weight.  I got lucky 10% would have been 25 lbs.  I'm no longer morbidly obese!!!!

Now that the nutritionist said I'm on to the final phase of the food progression, I feel the temptation to eat something I shouldn't is there.  But I'm feeling strong and just noticing the emotion over food. I don't want to dump so I'm staying clean, sober from the wrong foods. Also if I don't learn and change habits of reaching for the wrong foods then this is all a waste of time.

I still have a wound I'm treating. Its about 3 inches deep. I do it myself now, pack it and cover it up.  It's healing, slowly, still draining.

Surgeon ok'd me for exercise. Gotta call my club for persona training sessions. Geez, there's a commitment.

Going back to work on Feb 15.

Wow...... the effects of this surgery are truely amazing. No more diabetic meds. Wow!! No more cholesterol meds either. No painful carpal tunnel problems; I sleep with no pain in my arm and hand. I've lost 30 lbs and only 10 more lbs to go to get under my 200 milestone. I don't have to wake up in the morning just to get Mc D's.  My stomach used to be knawing at me to feed it immediately in the morning. That's all gone.  Eat to live now; not live to eat I guess sums it all up.  Sure I have dreams about meatballs in sauce etc..... but I can easily say no now. 

It is true what other WLS have said, it takes time for your pshyc to catch up with how you look. I look in the mirror and think I look horrible, half dead. I sometimes think I looked better 30 lbs heavier. Isn't that odd? It's something to do with the loss of something. 

I will no doubt get a makeover soon. Definately before going back to work.  I hope I can just go to work and not have to explain over and over again to people. Before the surgery I thought I would just go back to work and no one would probably notice anything. But now I know the change in me is noticeable so I think I'll have alot of explaining to do. To most people I'll say.... south beach diet  works wonders. Because a non obese person just would never know why I would do something like this and I'm not about to explain it to them.

One week post op and I've developed a wound infection. The lower left side from the laproscopic procedure. The wound looked fine but it was not draining, which would have been a good thing. The surgeon had to reopen it up. Very painful. Now I have daily nurse visits for wound care.

Well not really. It was hard getting thru the pain of the surgery but with pain management it made it much easier. I never let the pain get out of control. Good thing my hospital roommate was in for same thing. We had fun complaining of our pains to eachother.

First thing I remember after the surgery was the nurses trying to wake me up. Wake up, you have to wake up. Then the brought me to my room. Morristown memorial made my stay very comfortable. 

The 'what have I done' syndrome hit me once. But I talked myself right out of it by remembering all the failed diets and denials about my weight problem effecting my health.  I had to do this for my health. All the other perks of becoming a healthy person are just that a perk.

My children were so happy to see me when I got home. They couldn't visit me in the hosp since there were age restrictions on my dept. They've been so helpful to me at their tender ages of 5 & 7. My daughter still thought I'd come home thinner as if they were slicing off my butt and stomach. lol.

So far no complications and I'm 5 days post op. Take Care, thanks for all the well wishes.

Geez  I'm all teary eyed thinking 'what if's' about my surgery. But as statistics go I'd be more apt to die in a car accident on the way home from the hospital than from the surgery. But I look into my childrens beautiful eyes and when I see the depth of  our love it scares me. I posted the full song on my story below.  

Wow, 10 days to go. I feel numb but it's mostly 'Just Do IT!!' now. I'll need to pack my bag for the hospital soon.  I am wondering how hard it will be for me to manage my two children age 5 & 7 the first few weeks. Their father will help, but they cling to me something drastic.

 I hope I don't forget when cleaning the table after dinner that I can't  finish the food that they left on their plates. Such a bad habit.  Another bad habit I have is gulping a drink down, water or whatever. I guess it stems from drinking beer years ago.   Hehe. I hope I don't forget and without noticing do something like this after surgery.   

I'll be glad to buy some new clothes when the lbs start coming off. I gave away so many of my clothes in Oct. For those of you who don't know.... I was suppose to have my surgery in Oct but it got canceled due to another test was needed.  It was canceled 2 days before surgery!!  So I've been regulated to 1 pair of dress pants, 2 jeans, two sweaters, 1 sweat shirt, 2 t's and not much else. 

Checking my list twice...making sure I have enough protein drink, broth, Crystal Light, Ice pops. Making sure I'm not naughty but nice. Its such a busy time of the year I feel a little numb about surgery in January. I know it's coming but not thinking much about it right now.