extraordinaryme
Hi my name is Bobbi Jo and I live in Bangor, ME. I am married with 4 stepchildren that live in Florida. I love cats and have one named Angel Dust. I have been married since 2002. I am a 45 yr. old female and have been overweight since I was a child. I grew up with my grandparents and became a caregiver for my grandmother very early on when she began to have strokes and continued to have them until she died when I was 18. My grandfather was very controlling and verbally and mentally abusive but very controlling and demanding also. I have always been a very sensitive and emotional person so that didn't help me out at all. Somehow, since food was available I managed to use that to comfort and console me but also to receive love. My grandmother taught me well, that food was love and also taught me everything I knew about cooking and baking. That was what I did for college and for my career until 1998 when I became disabled and almost suffered a nervous breakdown. Anger was very prevelant in my house growing up but the only one able to express it was my grandfather and so for over 38 years I also kept that surpressed with food. I have not worked in 10 years. I have almost every co-morbity you can think of and now I weigh about 520 pounds putting my BMI way high. I have been put on the slow track and rejected for surgery at a local hospital because they won't do surgery on anyone anymore with a BMI over 65. I was so angry about that because they let me go through all the preliminary things allowing me to believe I would be able to have surgery and then they wouldn't. I had just given up until I just started seeing a new psychiatrist because of all my mental and emotional baggage claimed from childhood and she suggested that the only place that would do surgery was not here in Bangor, but there were other hospitals in the state. I started checking into that and found Dr. Huy Trieu in Augusta and I am beginning the process all over again. I am excited, hopeful and scared to death but I am ready, as I was over 2 years ago. I believe this is God's timing for me and my husband agrees. I leave the rest to God and his direction as I begin this process.
