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I've never been too open about my weight struggle before now. I've always pretended that it doesn't exist, trying to push aside the fact that it does. I've been overweight since childhood, and now as I approach the end of the twenties, I've finally made the commitment to healing my body, and with that comes a new openess and acceptance of myself!
The idea of weight loss surgery had been lingering in the back of my mind for quite some time, but before I could ever commit to the idea, I knew I needed to make a strong effort on my own. I've lost almost a hundered pounds through weight watchers, nutritionists, excercise, and pretty much every other diet out there. I had a lot of success at first, but over time it just seemed to get harder and harder. For the last two years I've really had a hard time keeping my weight stable, and the pressure to keep going continued to increase. Finally, last month, I was out with some friends and everyone started running and dancing all around. I wanted so badly to do the same, but I just couldn't. My body wouldn't let me. The following day I woke up, and just knew that it was time...
And so the journey to weight loss surgery has officially started. Aside from all of my fears, the freedom that seems to be right around the corner, is very exciting.
I have a super wonderful husband and really supportive friends, and family who have all shown much love for me as I've opened up about my decision. No haters...yet.
After an insane amount of research and meetings, I've opted to go with the VG. I'm still on the younger side and hope to have some babies in the future. Instinctually, it just feels right.
Most people say that they are looking forward to having there life back. For me, having been overweight since I was a child, I don't even know what life is like without being heavy. So, I've started to say, "I'm looking forward to having a fabulous, and very much improved, life."
