Jeanine F.
I was chubby at age 8, overweight in my teens by about 25 lbs, which I lost at 18 just prior to my wedding. Between 21-30, I had 4 children, retaining about 10 lbs after each pregnancy, so my average weight at 30 was about 195-200. That's still alot for my 5'0" frame! Youth was on my side and it was somewhat debilitating since it took away my energy. I refused to be photographed with my children, hence there are no...I mean NO photos with my babies or the kids as they grew. To me, this is the greatest tradgedy ever, since I am now into scrapbooking and I often cry about this fact. I spent 12 1/2 years with a verbally abusive control freak, who never missed a chance to put me down and ridicule me about my weight. I finally took my kids and left him. I met and married another man who loved me for who I was, not a visual image, though he never misses the chance to tell me how beautiful I am. We will be married 25 years next Aug. Over those years I have managed to gain another 80 plus pounds!! I am miserable, have type 2 diabetes, high blood pressure, borderline sleep apnea back (which I did have with a C-pap machine a few years back until I lost 63 lbs) Well, I found it quick enough and here I am. I can't do a whole lot of physical activity without huffing & puffing. I see my bloated face in the mirror and I am disgusted. Then I take a moment to recognize that I am beautiful inside where it really counts. I am moving ahead full steam to get my weight under control and have more energy. I have abused my heart and joints long enough. I can't wait to "Git R Done!!"
