June 9, 2008

Jun 09, 2008

Funny thing...life gets us going and we just don't update as often.

Last time I blogged I felt like I would never reach onederland.  Well, did it!  I can't even remember when I weighed anything that started with a one!  I know when I graduated high school I had already eased into the two's but don't really know what I weighed then!

I have also lost half of me! And, then some!  Anymore, when some one asks me what I have lost I just tell them "more than I now weigh!"

I also find it funny that everyone thinks it is okay to ask me what I weigh...since when is asking ANY woman what she weighs okay?  

But...for the record...today I am 183 (at home, Dr. office is 4-5 pounds heavier).  I am now very eager to ease into being less than 180 because then I would no longer be consedered "obese".  I would then just be considered "over-weight".

Without plastic surgery, I may never see a "normal" BMI.  I have A LOT of skin on my stomach and arms.  The skin is very thick too, so I know I still have fat deposits in those areas to lose.

All in all...I am very happy with where I am and am now just taking it one day at a time.  Heck, sometimes, just one meal at a time.

December 6, 2007

Dec 06, 2007

Well, as of tomorrow, it has officially been ONE YEAR!  Since surgery I am down 144 pounds and overall down 179.  I still want to lose 50-60 more pounds but would be happy (I think) if I could just get below the 200 mark and into Onederland.

I can wear size 18 now and XL, some 1X's, depending on the brand.  I am smaller now than I remember being since my early 20's or late Teens.

Yet, I am still not satisfied!  I wonder if I ever will be.  I see so many posting about changing their goal weight to a lower number every time they reach a goal.  I still cannot fathom even reaching the 100's much less 160 or 150.  And, I know I have so much excess skin that I may never reach goal without PS to remove it all.  But, then I see shows like Biggest Loser and these people had no surgery and exercised their butts off (literally) and they look great.  I really need to reach deep down and find my inner athlete!


October 4, 2007

Oct 04, 2007

So, I am sitting here, mulling over the last 10 months, and I really feel no different.  Yes, I am in a smaller size.  I am probably smaller than when I graduated from high school (really can't remember what size I even wore then, talk about denial).  People are noticing and commenting.  But, I feel no different.

Nothing in my life has changed other than my energy level and the foods I eat.  I am more active and try very hard to exercise (takes everything I've got in me 'cause I absolutely hate it!).  But, in general, no major epiphanies or dramatic, life-altering changes.

After losing a total of like 170 pounds (35 was pre-op), shouldn't I be feeling something?  I mean, physically, I feel great.  Mentally, the same ole me.  Nothing to swoon about or gasp over.  Just me.

September 12, 2007

Sep 12, 2007

It has been a while!  I feel GREAT today!  Went shopping for some Fall clothes and was able to buy a 20W in pants and a 1X in shirts!  I don't know when I was able to wear a 1X, ever.  I think I went from a 14 to a 26/28 overnight...crazy.

I am at 220 now.  Kind of stuck for a couple of weeks but that is normal for me.  Still not exercising like I should.  I do not know what to do with myself.  If I could just find something I liked to do instead of feeling like it was such a chore.  Working on this, though.  

I am also smaller now than when I graduated high school!  Of course, back then, I wouldn't dare step on a scale for fear of knowing what it would say, so I do not have much to go by in that area.  But I did see some old pictures of me when I was 20/21 and I was quite round.  Still round, well, maybe oval.

I still feel like I have so far to go.  In actuallity it is only 60-70 pounds.  Unbelievable.  There was a time I had more than 200 pounds to lose!  That puts things in perspective, doesn't it?

July 10, 2007

Jul 10, 2007

So, I feel the need to express a little concern...

Now that I have lost 145 pounds (from my highest) and am past my 7 month mark, some days I feel like, what if this is it?  I know, I know...145 pounds is tremendous, but, I still weigh 247!  I still have so much more to go.  I still qualify for WLS!  I would like to reach 150 or 160, but would be happy with 180 or 190.  Granted I will need PS to remove excess skin which will take care of a few pounds around my middle.  But, Lord knows when that will ever happen.

Yes, I have come a loonnnggg way but I am still not done.  But, what if my body says, "Oh, yes you are!" ?  Is it just my yo-yo dieting mentallity rearing its ugly head today or what?

And the thing is, I am not in any kind of stall right now... so why the icky feelings?
 


July 5, 2007

Jul 05, 2007

So, I finally got below 250!  This AM I weighed 249!  So, I reached my first goal!  Now to get below 240 and I will have reached another goal...BMI less than 40!  It will feel great to know that I won't qualify for surgery anymore.  As it is, I still feel like the old me only with more energy.  I don't feel like I look any different.  Sometimes I will go weeks, even a month without any weightloss.  But, during those times of frustration, the most people comment on my weightloss.  Stalls = comments.  I can live with that!

June 7, 2007

Jun 07, 2007

So, it has been 6 months since my WLS.  I posted new pics and can finally see a difference.  As of this morning I am down a total of 137 pounds!  95 more to go.  I set a goal of 160 but I really would be happy with anything starting with a 1!  Been selling a few under-grown clothes on ebay and gave the majority away to my sister.  WooHoo!

May 21, 2007

May 21, 2007

How is it possible to lose 120+ pounds and people barely take notice?  Granted, I am still obese and weigh over 250 pounds still, but come on!

At my highest weight I was nearing 400 pounds!  I have lost an entire person!  I had dinner with one of my supervisors last week, she hadn't seen me in nearly a year.  She said I looked like I had more energy and she could see a change in my face.  Nothing earth shattering, nothing like "Oh, my GOD, look at you!"  None of that.

My shape hasn't changed much, still round.  But, 127 pounds has disappeared! WTH!

On a better note...I think my stall is over but I will know for sure at my weekly weigh-in on Thursday.  I have been walking a mile everyday.  Actually, walking for 30 minutes so I go about 1.2 miles.  I am trying to build up to a 20 minute mile.  Right now I would practically have to jog to do that so I am working on it.

May 17, 2007

May 17, 2007

On another stall, darn it!   Been 3 weeks and I am bouncing around the same pound +/-.  I feel like I can eat more now, too, so I am really having to pay attention now to how much and what I eat.  No junk in the house now.  The baby needs snacks but I bought sugar free pudding cups and light fruit cups for him.  Heck, I even give him crystal light now too!  I never bought koolaid because I did not want the sugar rotting out his teeth.  He usually had fruit juice and milk.  But, he really likes the sugar free stuff and doesn't know any different.  Of course, he still asks for M & M's and doughnuts but if we don't have it he can't eat it either!

On Mother's Day I started the Woman's Challenge and have been walking 1 - 1.2 miles everyday.  I feel accountable somehow and input my distance and weekly goal on the website.  At least it gets me moving finally.  At the end of the 8 weeks I will have to find something else to keep me going.  Got plenty of exercise DVD's around the house so I need to dust them off!  I don't want to get bored so I figure if I change things up every 6-8 weeks it'll stay interesting.

Finally got my card!

May 16, 2007


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