Jen B.

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I spent the day on the phone being trained to be an OH leader.  It was interesting.  So many people have such interesting stories.  I have to say that I was blessed to no major problems.  The one thing I will be making a point to say at my next meeting is....it doesn't matter what tool you choose, we are all on the same path.  

I find that all the boards are jockeying for who's surgery is better.  There is not best fit surgery for everyone!

Yes, 2008 is all about me!  It is the first time in my life I feel really thrilled to be alive.  I know what is in store for my future and it looks great!  A wedding in October is the big thing for me.  

Tom is great for me!  He is my biggest support!  I love that he makes me feel like I am the most important person in his life.  I hope I do the same for him!  

The holiday season has been an experience for me.  My weight has stayed about the same.  I have eaten stuff I probably should not have, but with it being the holidays, I did endulge.  I like the fact that when I ate a treat, I ate far less than what I would have without the DS.  

I thank God every day that my surgery and recovery was one of those "text book" cases.  I am health and happy.  

My thoughts and prayers are with Lucie L and I hope that she has a turn around recovery.  I don't wish anyone to go through what she is going through.  

I am thankful for all the new friends I have met.  I love meeting new people and helping with our local chapter of wls support.  I hope that it grows and grows.  I also hope we shrink and shrink!!  I am taking the OH leader support group training in hopes of helping our chapter!

Well I finally did it!  100 pounds gone forever!  I can't believe how great I feel.  I know that when I read other people's posts, blogs and profiles, I thought I would NEVER be able to say that this was the best thing that could ever happen to me.  I was wrong, I admit it.  I am now considered "just overweight".  I don't fit into plus size clothing and now people seem to look me in the eye and talk to me.  

The great things in life at the moment are:
I am moving out of my apartment into a house in Niagara on the Lake.  

I am in love with a great guy and we are planning to be married next Thanksgiving.  

My class is great this year and I am truely having fun each and every day.  

I have learned that my friends who truely are my friends will be there fat or thin.

I have also learned that no matter what you do to change your outside, you have to work on your inside too.  I still feel like a fat kid.  Even when trying on wedding dresses, I still feel like I don't belong in something so beautiful.  I love the feeling of clothing being too big instead of too small.  

No matter who I am or  who I become, I will always struggle with feeling like the fat kid. 

I never thought I would be sitting in a pair of Old Navy size 16 jeans writing about how great things are going!  I almost a non plus size girl with a great guy in my life.  It is funny how things work out.  I am down to onederland and I struggle to get in protien and eat balanced meals, but on the whole, I feel like a new person!!!

I hope all is well with the other DSERS because I am so happy to have done what I did!  I know that the first few weeks, and even months are hard to adjust to, but hey...it is worth it!

Well, this week so far I have not lost weight.  I try not to weigh myself everyday, but it is hard to stay away from the darn scale.  I know my weight is shifting and I am looking thinner.  My underwear keep falling down, so I know it is time to spring for some new undies!  LOL  I bought a pair of shorts and pants in a size 20 and now my shorts are looking too big on me.  I put them in the dryer hoping they would shrink a little, no luck though!  

My PJ's are getting too big, but I can still wear them.  I will have to get some that fit me when I go to the conference I am going to in August!  I am rooming with another teacher!  I need to make sure I look ok!  I may even have to splurge for some clothes for that week!  We will see what my size is when the time comes!  This summer is flying by!

I am trying hard to get my energy level back to being more active.  Keep in mind that I was NOT active at all before surgery and now I do some walking.  Things are feeling better too!  My feet don't hurt, my back is good...life is looking up.  

As my weight comes off I am trying to give myself little goals or incentives to work at eating well and walking.  I decided when i get to 199, I will spend some money and buy myself some kind of jewllery.  I like Dr. Ganz's(sp?) about the charm she wears to remind herself of who she is.  "FF" on the back of a gold charm...it can stand for Forever Fat, or Feeling Fabulous.  I guess it depends on how you feel that day.  Today I would think it means the first one.  I struggled to get in my protien and then I ate stuff I should not have!  I feel good though!  Who knows how my bowels will react later! 

Wow, I am finally seeing the weightloss on my body.  I can't believe how I am looking!  I bought a new pair of shorts before I went camping and they are a 20!!  That is two sizes down for me!  I am thrilled.  

I still have a battle with food though.  I hate the feeling I get when my stomach is empty.  I feel like I have sour stomach when it is empty.  I am trying to get in all the protien I can, but every once in a while I don't.  I find that starting off my day with a protien shake is a good thing for me.  It coats my stomach and gets me going for the morning.  

This last weekend was the big test so to speak.  I had to kinda go with what the others were eating.  I ate pork chops, hotdogs, and a bite of a grilled cheese sandwich.  I know it wasn't the best of menus, but when camping...eat what you can!  

I am finding my skin really dry.  I am not sure what that is a sign of, but I am going to drink more water in the next few days to see if that helps.  I feel like it is the middle of winter!  I am a scalely lizard!  I hope this is temporary!

Otherwise, I am doing ok.  I keep trying to get myself more active.  I have to go walk at the mall today.  It is raining here.  I need to leave my wallet at home!  No spending money!  I am saving for some new clothes in the fall!  I too need back to school clothes!  :)

This past week I have been uninspired to do much of anything.  I have been sleeping and getting in some protien.  I need to perk up a bit.  I can't believe how the weight is just falling off of me though.  I should be happy, but I hate it when everyone asks if I have done some walking today.  I know I am supposed to be walking and I have done some walking.  I just don't need the walking police on me every day.  Maybe I am just cranky.  I miss french fries.  I so want some today.  I haven't had them yet, and I know I shouldn't.  I am just hoping that I can have something else besides chicken and fish!  I need a change!

My incision is healing and it looks like I can go camping next weekend.  That should be an adventure.  I am going with my good friend, Sherry and her 3 kids.  They are my God children.  Sherry says that she has all the stuff to camp with, so I bought the kids some stuff to play with.  I love being able to buy them treats now and then.  I went a little overboard, but we will have fun!  I hope the weather is good!

I really don't feel like doing much of anything these days.  I sleep and eat and walk.  School is almost out and I have to go to work on Thursday for the first time since May!  I wonder how people will react to me.  I am almost 30 pounds lighter since I left school!  I have a new principal coming to our school too.  I hope it will be a good productive meeting. 

It is 1:30 am and I am sitting here eating a popsicle.  It is sugar free, yet very yummy.  Today I ate chicken for the first time.  I am obsessed with trying new foods each day so that I can move on from this bland phase.  I spoke with another ds patient, Randy, and she told me to be more adventurous with my food.  I think I will try some nuts this week as I am craving salt and crunch!

I am feeling ok, still sore in the tummy and tire easy but  I am getting out and doing the odd thing.  Yesterday I walked around a grocery store and then I went to Michael's crafts.  It was a good outing.  I needed a nap afterwards though.  

My family has been so supportive.  I am surprised about how supportive.  My mother has been the best thing that could ever happen to me.  She is able to help me and seems to like to be able to help.  Our relationship has changed and it makes me happy to say that my mom is the greatest!

On another note, my life is also changing in other areas.  I looked at a wonderful townhouse on Saturday and if all goes well, I may own it soon!!  My parents need a place to stay while their house is being rennovated so, so they are going to move in to the town house for a few months first, then it is mine!!!  I have no problem with that and I can't wait for the process to begin!!  I feel like everything is going so well all of the sudden!  Maybe my surgery is the beginning of great luck!

Hi!  I can't believe I am a week post op!  I am getting better every day.  Eating is like a brand new thing.  Every day is something new.  GasX strips have saved my life at times.  

I thanks God for having my mother with me.  She has been a trouper.  She has waitied on me, taken care of me and tried to entertain me each day.  

I am going to go to have my staples out on Friday!  I get to go home and sleep in my own bed.  Things are looking up.

I guess the scarriest thing that has happened on the way was when my bp dropped really low in the hospital.  I knew something was wrong because they wouldn't let me out of bed!  I knew I should be lapping people in the hall.  I did not get in much walking because of being so low.  I had a side effect from the morphine.  It caused my bp to drop to 50/30.  I am feeling more human everyday.  

My feet felt swollen and I felt like a big balloon.  They pumped so much stuff into me that I thought I was going to explode if you put a pin in me!  I left the hospital weighing 10 pounds more than when I went in.  

Today, I am starting to see and feel the weightloss.  I know that I am down some weight and my legs and arms don't feel like I should be modelin as the stay puff man!

I am excited, I am still scared, but I know this was right for me.  Although a bag of chips would probably taste pretty good right now!  LOL

I have been so busy getting everything done that I need to get done, that I haven't blogged!

This past week was a whirlwind.  I found it hard to let go at work and leave.  I feel like I will be missing all the fun stuff.  The end of the year can be stressful, but it is also fun to see the kids enjoying the end of the school year.  

I am packing and getting things ready for next week.  I have had my two weak freak, and I am rolling along.  My parents have been very supportive and I am thankful for that.  

I have gone through all the stuff on the phone for the hospital and I have talked to Julie at Dr. L's a few times.  My approval came through for my surgery and guess what?  They put the wrong state saying I was approved for surgery in Minesota.  I found it funny.  I guess Julie had to call and make sure they knew what they did.  

So, I have been trying to lose weight and I keep yo-yoing because I want to eat what I won't be able to have again!  I know in my head that I can eat some stuff again, but I am trying to put it into my mind that I just can't eat it.  Who knows if that will help or not!

I have made all the arrangement I possible cold have made!  Who knows what I forgot!  I am sure I will live.  

Thanks you to LeeAnne and Ann who will be reporting for me.  I can't wait to be on the switch side!