Pollyann F.
bout time to blog i guess
May 07, 2009
Well is has been a while since i last blogged. I am now 6 months post op. Doing well gotta get my labs drawn and go to my check up next week. Hopefully all will be good. I am really battling depression right now. My 19 year old son that just moved up here in Dec. has decided to move back to Texas. He was adopted and I never thought in a million years i would be able to be this close to him much less have have him live with me. It has been ver hard though. The skills i would have liked for him to have he wasn't taught and I know I can not mother him now. It has been quite stressful over the last few months. Do not get me wrong i am OVER JOYED to have had the opportunity to get to know him better, but me and dh both are disappointed in the parenting he has or should I say the lack of parenting he has recieved. I feel soo guilty but at the time when he was born I had no one. No one to count on and my daughter was 15 months old. I was told you got yourself in it you get yourself out. At 20 years old with no one, what should I have done? Did i make the right descision, could I have raised them both alone and managed to give them all they needed and not live on walefare? I know I should never second guess myself. I know I did what I thought was best for both of my children at the time. It just breaks my heart. Sorry to ramble on and on..but I needed to get this out. I just wish things could have been different. Will blog more after i go to my DR and post updated pics.
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About Me
china grove, NC
Location
25.1
BMI
Surgery
11/07/2008
Surgery Date
Oct 08, 2008
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