Firstlady215
December 6,2006
Well, had my consultation today, with Dr. Williams, andeverything went ok. I decided to have the full bypass. The reason for my decison is primarily because I dont want to loose realllllly slow (Not sure if that is the wrong reason) . I got there at about 7:45 am, and got called preety quickly(a good thing). I met with a couple of doctors, dietician, med student(I was looking at him kinda crazy), rn, nurse praticioner, and then finally the damn surgeon. By that time it was like 10:45 am, and I was ready to go. I have like a million and one test to do, and I am do not exactly know where to start but hope fully. It will work out. I decided to start by making my appointment for the sleep study, and to my suprise, my appt is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wasnt exspecting tht. I decided to press my luck as well, and try to make my other appts, and that went ok, because I was able to get them for next week. So I guess the ball is rolling!!!!!!!!!!Hope fully I willbe on the loosing side some time early( and I do mean early) next year!!
December 7, 2006
Well today is the day for my sleep study, damn I really do not want to go to this tonight. I really am so not in the mood, but I will be there with bells on, so I can get this part over with. Never the less, for some damn reason, my ass decided to look at the memorial pager( what was I thinking),!!!!!!!!
DECMBER 11,2006
Well today, was not the greatest day. I called and made my pysch apointmentt, and get this , all dates are filled untill feb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I should have known everything was moving by too smoothly. I guess I will not be having my surgery in to maybe March or April.!!!!!!!!!!!! What a bummer!!!!!!!
December 13, 2006
Well had my appointment with my PCP, and got all my testing done, and scheduled, so I am on a roll. The only screwed up thing is the Pysch evaluation..........which i could not get an appointment untill Feb........... So my whole situation is on hold untill then. I think I am going call everyday, and see if someone cancelled out!!!!!!! Other than tha life is great, I have yet to start my Christmas shopping. I think every one is geting gift cards. I am so not in the mood for all the long lines. I am so ready for the new year to be here, and so I can get the WLS. Well back to work as usual . December 29,2006Well I havent updated in a while. I have just been going through the motions, of Christmas, work, and tryying to get my life in order, with this weight issue, and all the other stough tht goes with it. Kinda feels like I am going through a 12 step program or something. LOL. Well still no changes in me getting a pysch evaluation, still have to wait untill Feb. I even tried to call this week, to see if there were any cancellation, but they had the nerve to be closed!!!! Other than tht, life is same ol same. Lately I have been making slow steps to try and leave some of my negative thoughts behind for the new year. So hopefully there will be a new me, both in body, and mind for 2007. I plan to return back to me Weight Loss study on Jan 1, ( for the record, I am a participant in a Weight Loss study with the University of Penn, in which they test the affects of natural dieting, versus those that have had gastric bypass. I am supose to be on the natural side/for now!!!!!But Starting out I orginally lost abt 25 pds, but........I didnt stick with it) so hopefully I willhave the strength to stick with it, and jump start some of this weight loss before surgery!!!!!!
January 18,2006
Well havent updated in a while, I needed to make a change to my page, those skeletons were GOD awful!!!!!!!lol, Anyway...not much has changed in my life as of yet . Still waiting to get my Pysch evaluation, which is completly holding up this whole process. Other than that life is grand, just working extra hard, and just learning to take care of my self first!!!!! Somethimes that is like the hardest thing to do. Seems like we are always worrying abt others, and at times , they dont worry abt us. Well this weekend , will be meeting with some othe WLS, patients, that should be intresting, because I honetsly do not know what to exspect , walking in to this surgery!!!!!!!!!!!!! I also cant say that I have been eating all the right things because I Havent, but.......... Ill get There
January 29, 2007
Well, not much has changed. I feel refreshed from the weekend. I am getting closer to my pysch evaluation date-Feb 14th, spoke to my surgeons office, today, just trying to stay on top of things, making sure they have all my paper work,!!!!!!!!!!!!!So speaking with her as well, kinda eased a bit of my tensions.
I have to go for a second sleep study, apparently I do have sleep apnea!!!!!!!!!! or moderate obstructive sleep apnea, and I snore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!That sucks, I really do not feel like being in that hotel/hospital again, or wearing a CPAP, machone, but hope fully its only temporary!
Feb- 1, 2007
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!This day has already worked my nerves and it aint. but 11 am. So this morning I had to go for my Upper Gi, my Pulmonary function, and chest X ray, so my appt was at Chestnut Hill Hospital at 8 am. I got there like 745, so I am like great I am on time, I can knock this out , and be done with it. So first up, is the Chest X ray, so i have to strip down to everything except my underwear, like what the hell, my period is on, so I really wasnt feeling that, I need that wxxtra protection, of my pants to hold everything in place. Any way, so a lady comes in and ask me what test I am getting , and I am like a chest Xray, so she is like I thought u were here for a upper Gi, I said yes, but that appt isnt untill 10, am. She is like well we might as well do them back to back, so I am like cool. So the chest X-ray went cool, no major issues. But that damn upper GI, nobody warned me abt that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!That was one of the worst medical experiences that I have ever had to date, to make a long story short, i had to keep tossing and turning on this table, after you drink this nasty barium crap. I eventually threw up on the table`! (That was too much damn turning 4 me), but after at it was done. It seemed like it was forever.
By the time I was done it was like 9:30 so I am like cool, I can got to my Pulmonary function, cool right? No, this nasty lady at Chestnut Hiill hospital, who was the one administering the test, insisted that she couldnt do it because my appt was a 9 am, and that I missed the time. I looked at her like B*tch, I was right down the hall , why didnt u come and get me or say something, nobody told me that your appts were that seriously tight. SO bottom line this dumb heifer, doenst let me get the test, and now I have to re schedule 4 another day.!!!!!!Like what the hell!!!!!!SO i am just a tad bit pissed off, but thanking GOD, that that GI test is over . It was horrible, I can still taste it!!!!!!!Yuck!!!!!
Feb 7,2007
Not much of an update, but life is better today that yesterday. Yesterday I think I had a temp relapse to basement behavior. You probably reading this and like what the hell is basement behavior (You have got to read Iyanla Vaynzants book In The Meantime," to understand) A couple of months ago, I went through the craziest break up, and it was due to my weight, the ass hole said he thought I wasnt healthly enough for him.( I didnt gain any weight, he met me and I was the same weight, when we broke up) I am still confused by it, but God has a plan. Everything happens for a reason.
This really messed me up for a while, because I honestly belived that love was really unconditional, I thought he was everything that I wanted, but realizing that he was shallow, in the end, is hella confusing. . but who knew........Keep your friends close and your enemies closer I guess!!!!!!!!! This whole situation, basically brought me back to reality, abt my life, and just denial abt my weight, and putting other people before my self. So every once in a while I have a relapse of being sad, and actually miss him. What the hell.........
So my final appts are getting nearer, Thank god, so hope fully i will be a looser soon. I actually have a appt for my Weight Loss Study , that I am aprt of at Univ of Penn. , to get a weigh in, and go for a group meeting. This shall be refreshing hope fully. Hope fully I will be able to get my self back on track to droping some pds before this here surgery..........
February 12, 2007
I just happened to call to see what time my pysch evaluation was for on WED, only to find out, my appt was rescheduled for tomorrow at 11:45 am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess i got what I wanted, an earlier apt.......1 day
Feb 13, 2007
Well, I have finally had my pysch evaluation today, and it was a piece of cake!!!!!!! Basically they just want to know if you are fully aware of the process that you are about too, and that you will be able to cope after surgery. It lasted abt 45 mins, which was a good thing.It did cost me $275.00, but I guess its a small price to pay, for great health in the future.
The Dr, That I saw was really nice and he was even help full with suggestions that will help after surgery. He said that he will be writing my letter to go to the surgeon today, and that he belives that I am a good canidate for the surgery. YAy, that was a good thing. Now the only thing I have left is my 2nd sleep study, which is tonight!!!!!!!So hope fully off to approval I will go, very soon. !!!!!!I am looking forward to getthing this over with.
Feb 14, 2007
Happy Valentines Day!!!!!!!!... Not.......The thought of v-Day, is making me sick!!!!!!
Well I had my 2 nd sleep study last night, at Unive of Penn in the Sheraton, and it wasnt that bad. The worst part for me was all those extra wires, that I dont remember from the first time!!!!!! The sleep technician , was really nice, and I think she was new, because she had directions, to hook up the wires. They put me on the nose CPAP, machine, not the full face one, so it was not too bad, and I actually slept ok. It was just tight as all hell!!!!!!!!!but I made it through. So, that was it, hope fully i will be on my way to approval. I do have my pulmonary function test tomorow(again), but i am done all my initial test. Next I guess , I need to worry abt going to the nutrition class, and pre-op test before surgery!
fEB 15, 2007
Well, everything is oficially done, I did that darn Pulmonary function test, and I had the same lady from before, with the nasty attitude!!!!!!!!!(I wanted to lay her out, she lucky I'm saved), but she couldnt break my mood, still, so I made it through.
So when I got to work, I called, my surgeons office, and spoke with Irena, and she said she received my letter from , my Pysch evaluation. She will be submitting my paper work today, so hope fully I will know something soonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!! Pray for me !
Feb 19, 2007
Not much has changed. I am a little pissed, because I spoke to my surgeons office last week, and they said that they were going submitt, my paper work for approval. I received a phone call saying, that they did not have enough info regarding my doctors supervised diet. My diet was part of a weight loss, study, and I received weekly weighs ins, blood test, meal plans which included a liquid diet and one meal a day. but it was done in a group enviroment, of about 5 people. I was told in the beginning of this journey, by my surgeons office that it counted, now, I think they are trying to say something different. What the hell!!!!!!!!!! They could have said this back in Dec, and I would have even started the one from surgery office. So now I am hoping and praying, that I can get some additional paper work, from my research study!!!!!!!!! All i need is 3 months from my insurance office Keystone POS, but i have well over 10 months of weigh ins. I am not exactly sure because most of the consultations, were done in a group of about 5. I did get weighs weekly although. What the hell am I to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feb 21,2007
Happy Wed......... I guess, it is just so much going on, and I m so not in the mood to do anything. I spoke with my Diet Doctor yesterday, and she said she will be able to develop a letter, detailing the exact program that I was on, and how I did on the program. I am not sure if that will be enough, and I am very worried abt it at this point. I am not sure when the heifer is going to do the letter , but hope fully it will be soon, because my file should have been sent to my insurance company last week. I should be getting this surgery next month, but, noooooooooooooooooooo. I am stuck waiting for a piece of paper??????Like WTF, it is so wrong that sometimes, people can hold your future in their hands, I know that might not be all the way true, because only GOD, can , but it feels like it lately. Well , i cant help to be a little down in the dumps.
Also I have been hearing about this IVC filter, and I am actually thinking abt asking abt putting one in me as well. Just to be on the safe side of things. When i went for my consulation the Dr. said that he didnt think it would be necessary, but right now i am a bit paranoid. My PCP, wants me to get tested for inheriting clotting tendencies, since my mother , and grandmother , has had issues with blood clots, recently, so I think I am going call and see abt that in the morning. Better to be safe than sorry, I am trying to take every precautionary measure , so I can be alive come the summer time !!!!!!lol I am so serIOUS
Feb28, 2007
Well, I have been kinda down lately,just not in the mood for life!!!But "This too Shall pass, " Seems like I dont spend any time with my fam anymore, its a weird feeling. !!!!!I dont know. I think that all of these years of smiling on the outside, but crying on the inside, is catching up with me! i am exstremely tired lately, and the other day, my co worker , was like whats wrong, you have bags under your eyes. I think I am really going take some serious time off, when i get this surgery!! I first was thinking like maybe two weeks will do, but maybe a month is going be needed.
I just want to get this surgery done and over with. Finally I got that darn letter from my weight loss dr. I spoke to the receptionist in my surgeons office, and my paper work is being submitted tody. She said she would call me in a couple of days with my surgery date.(WOW) She was very confident that i will receive approval, and I guess that is a good thing, but you can never be too sure!I think I am going call Keystone in the afternoon tomorrow, to check to make sure they have all my papers. Well wish me luck!!!!!!
Feb 28th
The last day of the month, and I had an appt with the sleep doctor, so she could go over the results, from my sleep studies. It went ok, the sleep doctor, said that I have severe sleep apnea in the REM periods(which is when I am dreaming), and it seems that it is corrected, when I use the CPAP machine. She also said that , more than likely I may eventually have to get my tounsils removed, due to my snoring issues, but they want to concentrate on me getting one surgery at a time for now. Also according to her report, apparently, I had 83 episodes, and hour in my dreaming sleep, ( like what the hell) in my first sleep study, and only 13 episodes, in my 2nd study with the CPAP. I am on a level 7 for the CPAP machine. The doctor was almost sure that, it would be corrected , after i start to loose weight, and she reccomended that I at least it for 4 hrs a night!!!!!!!Lately i have been really tired, even if I am getting like 8 hrs of sleep a night. I am almost looking forward to me getting this thing!!!!!!
March 1, 2007
Happy March!!!!!!!!!!!!Today, I feel good, talk to my mama, last night, and for some reason, i just feel better. I really need to completly focus on myself, for a change.!!!!!! I called my insurance company today, and still they dont see anything(WTF), so i called the surgeons office again, and she said she did submit it a couple of days ago, and that we probably will not here anything untill maybe WED of next weeek!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, ill take that, I am so impatient right now. Can i get a surgery date before the month is it????????
March 5, 2007
Well, Happy Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and it is one indeed!!!!!!! I have been horribly sick all weekend, and I dont think I can remember ever being this sick before in all of my life, a serious FLU!!!!!! So i go to work this morning, late as usual, 11:30, am, knowing I should have been here at 10 am(Who cares). So i log on to OH, to see that a fellow pre- op, with the same exact insurance, and the same exact, Dr, who had her paper work submitted the same exact day, received an approval already. So I am thinking, like WTF, I didnt get anything, nor hear anything. So i call, my insurance company. and after being on hold for like 20 mins, the lady cmes back and say, yes you have been approved, with a tenative surgery date of March 15!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I call my surgeons, office, and they are able to schedule me for surgery, and my date is April 2, 2007, which is nearly 3 weeks away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God is GOOD!!!!!!
I am actually truly happy, for a change, a weird feeling that I havent felt in years. Now, I am like, oh darn, what do I need to do next to prepare!!!!!!!!!Now the nail biting begins. I have my nutrition class scheduled for March 16th, along with all of my other Pre-Op testing. I am so on my way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday march 9, 2007
Well, this week, has been a great week. I got my surgery date, and I think that I am at peace with what is going to happen. Like I stated before in my profile "The only thing that stands between us and our goals, is Fear" !!!!! So i will not be defeated, and scared. I am leaving this in GODS hands.
Next , my biggest thing now is worrying abt, if all my blood levels will be ok, so I can get the surgery. I have my final visit for my pre- op testing next Friday, along with my visit with my NUT. There goes, another $200.00 that I have to spend out of pocket, but I aint complaining though, juts mentioning it. I also have a $250.00 hospital stay deductible, and I still aint complaining. I have started taking some iron pills, due to me always having a low iron reading when I get my blood test. It has been making me feel weird, so I didnt take it today. Hope fully, my monthly will not come on, before next Friday, because that it what makes , my iron levels abnormal. Other than that nothing is new, I am working tonight, and am dreading it, and I have off Saturday(thank the lord). I think i am going go and buy, a bunch of new sheets and things. I am also planning to have my apt cleaned professionally before surgery, so I can come home to a extra clean, house. I am not exactly the cleaning type, so I will be hiring Merry Maids or something like that. !!!!!!!!!! I also need to start getting my paper work filled out so , I can take leave from my gigs. I am thinking abt not returning, after the surgery. I am sooooooooo sick of the radio business any way. I really need to leave that in GODS hands along with the surgery.!!!!!!Life is Great today.
Tuesday march 13, 2007
Well, getting closer 19 days and counting!!!!!!!!!!!!So much to do, and so little time. I think the harder thing with this is going be the mental side, seriously. I find it messing with me now, what is a girl to do?
Saturday March 17, 2007
Ok, now this whole thing is getting real!!I went for my final visit with the surgeons office, and they gave me a physical, went over my paper wrok. In speaking with the NP, is was advised that prior to this surgery, I go see a Hematologist, to see if I have clotting tendecies, because my mom , and grandmother both suffered from blood clots, for no reason. So, if I do have inherited clotting tendencies, then I really have to get the IVC filter. This is becoming a bit much, but my appt with the Hematologist is Thursday. I also received a blood test, to check my levels. I also went for my nutrition class, and I thought I had to pay 200.00 come to find out it was free, my insurance Keystone pays for it. I was glad!!!!!!!!!! Honestly they did not teach me anything in there that I didnt know. We also spoke with , someone who gave us instructions for pre op, and post up. I also met with the registration staff at the hospital, and registered for surgery. I need to get a living will, this week. Today I did some shopping with my mom, to get some things will need. I received some samples, from a fellow, OH member to try(thank god for that) , so I will be doing that this week. I already a stock of protein powders for my weight loss study, but I need a little diversity. I also purchased a protein pudding from GNC today. It has 20G of protein, no sugar, and 100 calories. Hopefully I will like it. I am getting excited, the countdown is really on!!!!!!!!!!
Monday March 19,2007
I am urked this morning. I just found out I have to pay for that damn CPAP machine. Why????????????? and that darn pudding I talked about in the previous post, was horrible!!!!!!Yuck, I wonder, will GNC, take it back, even though I took a spoon full?lol, So i will not be doing that again. The countdown is so on, 13 days, and counting!!!!!
Tuesday March 20, 2007
I picked up the Cpap, today, and I am so not feeling it. $113.00 later, i have a new toy, with a designer mask!!!!!! Spare me!
Other wise so much to do and so little time, I still need to get my apt cleaned, new pillows, some food for this journey etc.....I finally got my living will, together. I got one online, and kinda customized it for myself. Hopefully that will do, and now I just have to get it notarized. Reading it almost made me cry, all the questions, and all, but I made it through. This is really a mental journey, as well, and I just pray that I can keep my sanity! (LOL) I think that I am actually freaking my own self out, more, but sometimes you just cant help it. 12 days and counting!
Friday March 30, 2007
Wow party people, my surgery is 2 full days away. I received my final clerance from my Hematologist, clearing me for surgery, no blood clots present, nor genetic clotting tendicies present!!!!!!!!!!! So no blood filter for me, that is a great thing . Well I had my apartment cleaned, brought my vitamins, sippy cups, and baby spoons. I will be doing my last food shopping tomorrow to grab a few items, soups, sugar free popsicles etc...... I will also be going to lunch/dinner with my girls tommorow for my "last supper," So i will be doing that before i start my bowel prep tomorrow. The last solid food I will be seeing in a while. I will be working up untill I go into surgery, belive it or not I have to work Sunday night untill like 2am, I have a radio engineering broadcast to attend to, ( If my mom new she would kill me) !!!!!!!!!!I am feeling great, and am just looking forward to getting this over with. April 2, 2007- I will make it through this, and I look forward to greatness in the future. !!!!!!!!!
*******So I have about 118 pds to go untill I get to my goal weight of 140 pds!!!!!!!!*******
April 2, 2007
You can not be serious, not today, I am so not ready!!!!!!!! I have to be there by 11:5 am, and am seriously starting to punk . out!!! Never the less today is my new Birf-day!, and I am excited, not scared just anxious to get it over with, and being back min my own darn bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But off I go
April 3, 2007
Well, here I am!!!!!!!!!You may be wondering, how it all went????????It went great up untill, they woke me up, and told me that they couldnt do it because of my anatomy inside!!!!!!! Yes I didnt get it done, I went through the whole thing, but once the surgeon, got me open, he realized that my insides would not benifit from gastric bypass, and that I needed to get the lap band!!!!!!!! I never heard of such foolishness, but I heard it yesterday. I am truly dissapointed, but I guess if it was meant to be it would be. So now, I am home, all stitched up, and now got to go back, once again for a different surgery!!!!!!!! My new date is May 7th, and i am not happy about that, a whole month away. So close but no cigar!!!!!Orginally, when i was coming into getting this surgery, i was going to get the lap band, but decide no, because I wanted quick results, and to the maxiumm, but now I have no choice!!!!! I am in no physical pain, just my heart aches, because I am sad. I was really going through it yesterday, but was cheered up by BAF member Daises, she came to see me. Thank GOD for her, a true blessing!!!!!!!! Well I now have to come up with a different plan for my WL, journey.
April 18, 2007
Well seems like everything is back to normal! Prayer really works, because I was going through it, but I am better now than I was . No pain, my scars are nearly cleared up , and crusted over, and in two weeks, I will be going through it all over again! Yeah me !!!!!This time, I am not scared just anxious to get it over with, it seems like i have been through the worst of the worst already. Last week, I finally met with my Dr, and he stated that he couldnt go through with it because my stomach was too skinny! I am like what ????????????????????So if my stomach is too skinny, then why am I fat????? Anyway, so he stated that he could not safely complete the operation, because it wouldnt have resulted in a good way. So he suggested that I get the lap band. I was leaning to the VBG, but he said no, that he doesnt think that would be wise , becaue he doesnt think the results would be as great for me, and that my starting weight may be a little too low for that! He did say, that he is confident that this will work well for me, and that I may just have to work a tad bit smaller, but due to the already small shape in my stomach, this will work well----------SO-----------I will be getting the lap band . My surgery date is May 7th-. I told him, that he best not be cutting me open again, and not doing some type of surgery. He said no, that wouldnt happen, and he sure that he can do the lap band successfully. Life has been ever so busy, lately with work. I have to get my self back in a sugery frame of mind.
April 27,2007
Not a happy day for me, my surgery day may change!!!!!!!!!! LIke WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I cant seem to win in this battle. Hope fully every thing will work itself out. The promblem is- I have to attend another WLS nutrition class. They are only on Friday, and there is only one more Friday untill surgery! I am going out of town next Thursday and will be 8 hrs away. Noty planning on returning untill Sat- i wouldnt care too much about it, if it wasnt for the fact that my whole familly is going, and will not be able to go unless I drive them down!!!!!!!!!!!!!(If it wasnt for that- I would be like forget the trip) Never the less, you cant have surgery without the class!!!!!!!!!! SO....................what do I do??????????????????????????????????? So right now, its either fly back and forth or, which is a bit much, and exspensive 1100.00 for a plane tix, or................................re schedule my surgery( cant get a date untill the end of June)...............or wait and see if they can do the class for me over the phone!!!!!!!!! I pray that the phone thing will work out. I will be calling first thing Monday morning to see whats what!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May 4, 2007
Well, hopefully, by the next time I write in this here , journal thingy. I will have nothing but good things to say. My surgery is Monday!!!!!Yikes, time sure did fly by. But let me complain a bit I went for that darn Nutritionist appt, and let me say that it was an absolute waist of my hr,and my week, and kept me from going on my trip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They basically told me the same thing that told me the first time I went, except for not so many vitamins, and adding of the gall bladder meds, and the acid reflux meds as well! Other than that, they could have called me on the phone. Then the secretary lady is going call me and say, there are these papers, that I was suppose to give you, which is the reason for you having to come in today. She faxed me the forms, and low and behold, i had already received these forms, at my last appt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Talking abt a pissed off lady am I . Now to the good news, surgery is Monday, 7:15 am, I have to be there by 5:45 am- nothing to eat after 8pm, and no liquids after 12 am. I can live with that. So i pray that everything works out with this here surgery. * Completly off WLS topic- I met a man****( I meet men all the time, funny but a different type of man******) I received flowers today, and it absolutely made my YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! So we will se how this here relationship develops. Seems like I always look at men, cross ways. Its always good in the beginning, but it turns bad in the end****** To prepare for surgery, this weekend I have like a million things to do-------Pay rent, wash my car, clean my apt, take a trip to GNC, go to the market, do a bit of laundry, finish up some work, so I wont be fired when I return , have dinner with my peeps, go to a fight party..........Jeez, where am I going find time!!!!!!
MAY 9, 2007
Well, I am finally home and banded, and lord knows having some pains. I am not sure if they are gas, hunger, or just aches, that is what makes it weird. I definetly didnt expect this. But surgery went well, the process was completly different this time, and I can honestly say that the anethesia is the worst part that i can remember. The smell, is just lingering in my mind. I remember coming out of surgery in pain, but content to know, it was done. So from there I received pain meds, via pain control pump, and was wheeled to my room, at about 12 pm. My surgery was at 7:15 am. I had a wonderful support system, my MOM, MS. Daises, and KDAy- of course I wasnt much of company the first day, becasue I was out of it due to all of the meds. I ended up staying an extra day due to the fact that I had my Barium test late in the day, and the results came back late, along with the fact that I didnt have to pee a lot. So an extra day it was, meaning, extra IV fluids, and just a whole extra pain in my ass!!!! I didnt get gas pains untill day 2, and let me tell you, they are so uncomfortable. I swear they didnt start untill the clear liquids started. I have yet to try GAS X, and I think I will be doing that tomorrow. I am trying to fight this head hunger, and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!!!!!!!!! Its is still hard to lay down, because of pain, but it is tolerable.
May 18, 2007
Post op appt-
Of course I over slept, and only had time to shower, and throw on some sweats, but I made it to my post op appt!!!!!!!!Seems like I was in there for ever, in that dr's office!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It has been 10 days since surgery , and I am happy to say I am finally down 14 pounds. I thought it was more but I will take that. My surgery process has be preety painless except for I had an episode where I almost thought I was dying yesterday, because my bowel movement was RED!!!!!!! I swear, reading some stough on this board, will have you thinking you have everything, when something happens with you. Well apparently it was the Red Strawberry Coolatas that I had. Well its all better today and the color is back to normal. I had to get one of my incisions re steri- stripped due to the fact that it had gaped a bit. In speaking with the nutrionist, she thinks that I am not getting enough calories, in , so I should work them to about 1000 calories, a day!!!!!!!!! Right now I am getting in around 700-800 calories a day. She also okayed me to start with puried foods, so that is a good thing!!!!!!!!!!
June 4, 2007
Almost one month post op, and feeling great!!!!!! I cant even belive I had surgery a month ago. As far as my band.........well she can be a Bitch somethimes. Just when I think, I dont have any restriction, she will make something get stuck to put me back in check!!!!!! Not the restriction, I first had when I got surgery, but still something. I am unsure of how much more weight I have lost since my post op visit, because I havent gotten on the scale, but I am feeling great. Of course I dont see a difference the least bit, but a few people say they do? Who knew. I am looking forward to my Dr's visit next week, so I can set up my appt for a fill, because I could defiently use that extra push. Other than that, no complaints. Now it is just the waitinggame, once again, but I am great full!!!!!!!!!
Work is hectic, ( I am only one person) it seems as if they are making up for the time I have been out- I have crazy parties, planned for the next couple of weeks!!!!!! My love life is progressing---------(dont want to get too hope full just yet), but so far so good( and he is accepting of me at any weight, so he gets an A+ for that!!!!.
Health I feel good, just tired, maybe I need to use that darn sleep apnea machine. It is about to go back. I need to buy a new mask, becasue I stepped on my other one , lol , right before I had surgery. That thing is just on my night stand collecting dust. Maybe , I will go and get one this week!!!!!!!!! Well thats it- One month post op and counting!
June 18,2007
Had my appt last Friday. I havent lost anymore weight , nor have I gained any so that is a good thing. !!!!!! I am wide open, at this point, I can seriously eat anything and lots of it. I havent been snacking at all, so I guess that is the reason, why I havent gained any weight!!!!!!!!!!!I am scheduled to have my first fill , next Monday June 25th, almost exactly 8 weeks, after , I had surgery. I am a bit shocked that I was able to make that my appt that fast, so I am looking forward to that!!!!!!!!!!!
July 3, 2007-
Still no weight loss, but none gained. I had my first fill yesterday at Univ of Penn, and I was in and out of there in an hr. Wasnt painfull, just a tad bit uncomfortable. Apparently I have the smaller of the bands, from what they told me, so I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing . I do have a bit of restriction, a lot more than before the fill. We will see how long this last!!!!!!!!!!!!!
October-9,2007
Whoa----------------Its been a long time since I have updated. but I am down 25 pds, and I dont see it any where. I am on fill number 3 as of last week, and finally , and I say finally. I have restriction, and have reached my sweet spot. I have literally the same type of restriction as I did when I had surgery, with out the pains. I may need a slight unfill because it appears a lot of things just dont go down right........ but this is kinda what I wanted, so I am going stick it out and see how it goes. My first wow moment happened the other day. I brought these jeans in a size 18 a few weeks ago. They absolutely did not fit what so ever..........I tried them on and I was able to get into them with no promblems at all. Yay me. I have been working out with a personal trainer as well. She has been kicking my butt. I am seeing results and she has made me a beliver. What else----------Love life sucks, job sucks, what else?????????
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August 20, 2008
Guess..whos's backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????
And who actually lost weight, and would say that she is half way too her goal weight !!!!!!!!!!! and creeping up on the 100 pder mark..................Thats right ME.......................The last few months have been an serious up hill battle........ I had a personal trainer for a while......but then was forced to move to Oklahoma for a few months, to go for training at the FAA academy( by the way I am offically a Untied States Air Traffic Controller))))))))))))))!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and lost track of excercise, healthy eating etc........The basics, of a lap band patient, have been almost void in my life lately........But because of the design of this band, I managed to still loose weight........I have no idea how................I just didnt see it, as I have been avoiding the scale up untill 2 weeks ago..................................and all I can say is THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It actually does work, and if I followed the RULES, to the letter........imagine, what my weight would really be today................I am really at my sweet spot, and have the feeling I did when I first had surgery. I have had 3 fills, and honestly cant really eat much at all..................... At one sitting, I can only eat about a small plate of food at one time............Its hard as I mourn food often .but this is what I wanted................ but thtough all my trials........GOD has had my back. I will say that this Lap Band thing......has not been all great...I have developed acid reflux, I throw up when I dont eat the right things, a lot of things get stuck, and the list of negatives can go on...................... and would have said a few weeks ago that this thing doesnt work...............but TODAY, my view points are a little differenty as I am officially down 50 pds from surgery!!!!!!! A lot of folks may not say that is a lot, but........................I wil say that I never in my life have loss this amount of weight........... and am at the half way point for my weight loss.... I do have a lot of sagging skin, I can now finally see my neck, and my ****(use your imagination on that one), and SEX is great, loosing the weight!!!!!!!!!!! I am back in a size 14...................What else can I ask for.........I also think my sleep apnea is gone..........?????But that is me self diagnosing myself......................... Life is Great...........Ill be back in a bit with more updates
October 10, 2008
Well lap band is still here to stay for now........I am so close to the 199 pd mark, i can smell it!!!!!!!!Lol but still not there, but progrss has been very slow.......But progress it really is......It snuck up on me.......Now.... My whole body is sagging, I have heat rashes, where my under arm, meets my breast, and my arms are terrble!!!! I think I may have to look into plastic surgery........!But ........I am still greatfull for how far I have come. Never the less on the home front..My dad is really sick, fell and hit his head, had a cranitomy, and has been battling for his life for the last month or so........Work sucks, I hate AIR TRAFFIC CONTROL.......on the man front!!!!!Whoa, I never new it could be this good, I just dont know how long it will last, but he is so damn good to me! Other wise life is good, god is good, and hopefully by my next post, I will claim victory, and weigh NO more than 199 pounds!
