I was born 4lbs and 5oz...... now I weigh 339.5.  That's alot of distance to cover in 43 years.

Age 5-15
 I was an active tomboy, my mom never never cooked anything i didn't like. We were a meat and potatoes family. We lived in the country and i loved horses. My grandparents bought me my first horse just before high school. I was considered by my peers as being chunky my height 5' 8". My weight when I entered high school was somewhere around 185lbs. I hated gym even though I enjoyed being active. My weight was just too high to go by unnoticed especially in phys ed. I was only child and felt a little lonely. I did, however have a lot of strength as I worked at a farm part-time in the summer and we had hay and straw to do at home too.

Age 16-22
  It was around this time I discovered that my relationship with food was unnatural. I noticed I was quite attached to it and discovered it was taking up a great deal of brain space as it became known to me that I was dependant on it for more than nutrients. It filled my lonely times, it filled my painful times and it filled my joyful times as well. Yes....food became the ultimate filler in my life. I did during this time lose 30 lbs and weight was down to 154.0 for a few months. Only to rebound much higher. I was 22 when my husband and I married.

Age 23-43
   It was during this time I made numerous attempts to lose weight, gave birth to towo sons and worked full-time in the rat race.... oh did I mention I got fatter anf fatter....even though at one point after my last preganacy I lost a lot of weight and my gallbladder too. I was active for a brief perieod of time, then I was injured at work and back came the weight again. Along with the weight came lots of pain and  disapointment....and a discovery....
   At 41 I began to do some self discovery. With a consellor I discovered I had to stop looking outside myself for assurance, for acceptance and to stop being consumed with making everyone else more important than myself. This was the time I also began researching WLS but my husband and i weren't ready to commit to this solution yet. ... Two years later...we're ready. I'm fully prepared to use the gift/tool as well as OH among other resources to take car of me now. I want to live.
 
 

About Me
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Location
31.6
BMI
RNY
Surgery
03/16/2010
Surgery Date
Jul 11, 2009
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