My body is killing me...I am soo sore

Mar 31, 2007

I faithfully have been working out for about 3 months now. I have been doing pilates in the mornings and aroebics twice a week for 45 mins.  I hav started walking 3 times a week...when I say my body is sore.....IT IS SORE.....No one understands why my body hurts so much by the weekend.....Only people that carries 100 extra pounds or more knows how it feels to be sore...My back aches, my legs throb, my shoulders hurts, and I just want to sleep...I went to the mall today and shopped with one of my friends. I have to tell you...one of the hardest things to do is go shopping with my skinny friends....its not because they have all these selections of stores to go in while I only have about 2,,,and while they get to try on all these cute skimpy outfiits on I just stand there and watch...Its the fact that I can;t stand for long periods of time because of my back...I did do a little bit better today with walking aroundm but I hav to lean on something several times and also had to sit down...It just makes me mad and sad that I can;t keep up with my friends...I can;t do simple things like I use to..I was in the mall for about 20 minutes and I started busting out sweating becuase my body get over heated...Do you know how embarrassing that is?.....Either though I am feeling better and can move around slightly better than before..I still can't wear Lane Bryant jeams/pants anymore unless they have elastic in them...I have to go to the Avenue and buy my dress and buy my dress pants...Its embarassing that I now wear a size 30-32 pants size...I am trying to stay focus and positive but times like this I just want to break down and cry....

It has been about 1 month since I have talken to the guy I have fell in love with and had to walk away from him....He hasn't contacted me...and as much as I want to pick up the phone and call..I refuse to talk to him...I keep telling myself that its for the best and all he caused was heartache and pain...I exercise to keep my mind off of him..but nights like this is when I lay and bed and think about him..I wonder if he even cared..or if he misses me...it just hurts to care so much about someone that just don't care about you the same...


Monday starts a new week.....I have to remain focus

Mar 17, 2007

It is really difficult trying to trying to remain focus on this diet. I have been keeping a food journal and I am trying to be as honest as possible...I am afraid to say that some days are better than other...I fell off a few times and had Pizza Hut or Mcdonalds...Of course I felt bad...Right now, if I want to reach my goal I have to get back on track...Monday starts a new week..I went grocery shopping and tried to get some healthy food...My goal this week is to cook something healthy each day.  I am also going to start walking the days that I do not have my aroebics class and just rest my back on the weekend.  I just have o keep my eye on the prize...I made an appointment to see a polumnary doctor the second week in May. She told me that I will have to take a breathing test and also I have to get tested for sleep apena...this should be intesting


What a Week!!!!!

Mar 08, 2007

I went to the dietitian this week for my 3 month supervised diet to lose these 30 pounds before the doctor even considers operating on me and talked with a few people having the same issues as all of us on here...It felt good knowing that other people are going through the same problems as me.  On my day off I watched the Oprah show about life after the Gastric Bypass and how people transferred there addiction from one thing to another and I think that show was really good

Oprah and the pycologist there made a good point about how some doctors only require you to see the head shrink once for the evaluation when we really should be seeing one regular prior to and after the surgery to deal with our personal issues...I really don't know about others but I know after my evalutation from the dr..I told her that I wanted to continue seeing her..b/c I had some issues to discuss..I have to get down to the knitty gritty on why I am an over eater...

I receieved a letter in the mail today from my PCP and it was the letter to submit to UHC for the surgery. I found out what was wrong with my back....I have a stress fracture (she wrote another word, but I can't spell it or even pronounce it..lol) I also was redignosis with POCS where I do not produce enough testostrone in my body to even out so I  have irrelgular periods and I do not ovulate everyone month...I am going to do some more research about that b/c this maybe the cause of my its so hard for me to lose weight...

Good Bye February...Hello March....

Feb 28, 2007

Today I had my second session of my pysch evaluation and it went really well. The Dr, gave me the results of the test I took and I was really shock how those question told her how I percieved myself and others.  She really hit the nail on the head...of course she told me that I was going through some depression and seem to be defensive..I felt comfortable enough to open up about my relationship with men, my friends, and family..and how my weight has became a major issue in my life...At the end of the session, she approved me for the surgery...I felt so much better just talking to someone about how I was feeling and what I was going through...I also got my cardiologist approval along with my PCP approval..My next step is to see the dietition next week.  

Thinkgs have been a little rough lately...I had to remove some negative out of my life and made some tough decisons to better myself...as hard as it was I felt like this was a good thing and I feel like a weight has been lifted from my chest..

What a Week...

Feb 22, 2007

Today wraps up my third week of aroebics class and I am sore..Today's class was so hard on my back...they did a lot of bending and I had to stop and do other things..On Tuesday, I went to see a pycologist for my surgery evalution.. I am kind of ify about they place I went to..the funiture was super old fashion and I just didn't really feel comfortable there...but I sat with the Dr and answer all her questions..
I wish she would of told me that I was going to be taking an exam and I had to shell out sixty bucks before hand...I hope my results turns out positive...Earlier that morning, I had my echocardiogram at the doctors office...I never knew you could ultasound your heart..
It kind of was uncomfortable b/c for one thing I was topless on a table with a object jammed to my chest and the top of my ribs...The last thing you want to do is spark up a coversation with the Dr.


My Neck...My back....My Arms...My legs...I am sore!

Feb 17, 2007

Today I went to my new chraropractor and I really like her. She adjusted my back and supported me 100% with getting the surgery..I laid on this table that rolled a ball up and down my back. It hurt, but the pain felt good b/c he hit several areas where I have pain at. ..She wants me to get some x-rays done of my back at the hospital this week and also comtinue to see her a couple of time this week...man these co-payments are killing me!!!!

My body is so sore from working out..I woke this morning at 4am and hit the gym..even though I only worked out for 30 minutes my body feels like I worked out for hours...I see the head shrink on Tuesday..so that should be very interesting..Its been a while since I say down and talked to anyone about my weight..well beside my other overweight friends..



I am so sore!!!!

Feb 09, 2007

Yesterday I had my 2nd areobics class and my body is really feeling it..My legs hurts and my arms hurt. We did some strip tease moves from Carmen Elektra video...I didn't realize how out of shape I was until I started stretching and moving..I have to keep this up..I have been trying to eat better and stick to some healthy stuff...

I made an appointment with a pyscologist the week after next for my evaluation and made an appointment to see the nutritionist the beginning of next month... I will check back in later


I am Tired!!!...but I feel good

Feb 06, 2007

Today, I went to my first aroebics class in a long while...I must say I feel good, but sore. My body is sore all over..My back was hurting, but not as bad as I thought it would..We did every kind of excersise I could think of..it felt good to stretch my body and relieve some stresss..I think I am going to go on Thursday again..I am too beat to even finish my blog message..I will get back tomorrow...

Stress Test...Long Day

Feb 05, 2007

Today, I went to take my stress test at Emory Crawford Long Hospital...I never been there before and it was rather nice...I thought this test was going to take only a couple of hours and then I could go to work..but little did I know when I got there they told me it was going to take about 4 hours...I had no choice but to take the whole day off instead of rescheduling..The test was kind of easy, but long..They stuck me with a IV and shot this fluid, Excercise medicine, into my veins...the fluid is supposed to open my veins as if I was working out..I felt kind of lightheaded and had a little headache.  They contantly took my blood pressure and kept record of it..

Next they took pictures of my heart for about 25 minutes. They had me lay down on my back and a machine would take pictures...I had to stay still and that was the hard part because my back was starting to hurt.. After that, I had to take a 2 hour break, which I spent that time sleep...woke up and they took pictures of my heart again...By the time I left I was hungry and thristy...and ready to go...I couldn't wait to sit down and eat a big salad...

I have been thinking about joining Curves with my one friends...When we went it was a different set up that I am not use to...they want you to use each machine for 30 seconds...and it adds up to 30 minutes..On one hand I want to join b/c its a small gym and I don't have to worry about these blood thirsty personal trainers and alsos about racing to a tredmil..on the other hand it seems like the workout is too easy...I am going to try it out for a few days and make a decision..


First Day of Excercises Completed...A billion more to go

Feb 04, 2007

I find myself jumping on OH everyday...I believe this a great support site and it is helping me out...Times when I think no one understands what I am going through I log on here and read that there are other people like me living this struggle....

Today, I did my second day of excersises and my body is sore.  I have been doing floor excercises and in the evening I have been walking on the tredmil...my back was kind of irritating me...but I tried not to overdue it..I did sweat I must admit...

This morning after my workout..I decided to make a fruit smoothie and I am trying to have that for breakfast every morning..or least until I see the dietation...I have my stress test done tomorrow and I am a little nervous...all these co-payments are starting to add up...thank goodness for the support of my parents..since I decided to have this surgeory I have been to the doctors 3 times...within 3 weeks...


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09/01/2009
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