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I was a normal size at birth and that is where that ended. Actually I was probably a normal sized child until about 3 or 4 (according to my mother). I guess that was where my life started going downhill and my weight began climbing. I was overweight then through till high school, but gained a lot of weight my last three years of high school. I used to get up and go without breakfast, then go without lunch. I would get home from school and be absolutely famished. I would totally binge for about 20 to 25 minutes. Just eating anything I could get my hands on just to satiate the hunger. Of course my mother would then get home from work and cook dinner and we were expected to eat dinner together as a family, so I ended up packing in more calories on top of the ones I had just consumed an hour or so ago. I gained a lot of weight from this very poor eating habit.
I then went through college and of course did not have much time to take care of myself then either. I did manage to lose about 65 pounds the end of my junior year into the beginning of my senior year. I figured that I better start losing weight because I was in college to find a husband and I didn't have much time left, so I needed to make myself as appealing as possible. Well I actually ended up meeting my husband during that time frame. We met on the Internet and got married before that was even a fashionable thing to do. I'm proof that it really works, we will be celebrating our 10th anniversary in July. Anyhow, as soon as I met him I started gaining back the 65 pounds that I had lost and a few more of their friends. I figured that I had him and he would love me no matter what. He has loved me no matter what and our marriage has been terrific. I am, however, tired of getting dirty stares from other women because I am a plus-size woman with a nice looking, healthy husband. I hate going to the mall with him because I get nothing but dirty looks from other women or they just stare in disbelief at the fact that this normal size, good looking guy would want to be with me. I don't want to go through that anymore. I want to be able to go with him anywhere and feel like I am not being stared at or given dirty looks.
I have been researching Lap-Band since the end of 2004. I was in the process of going through approval with Tricare and having the procedure scheduled back in early 2005, but we got orders and had to relocate from Florida to Texas. When we got here I thought that I would give Weight Watchers another try and I joined Curves. He got orders to Iraq right after we got here and that gave me a great opportunity to lose some weight while alone and focus on just me. I did that, but as soon as he got hom I gained the 40 pounds back. I still go to Curves and I love it. I have been a member for almost two years now. I am happy to be going into this already loving some form of exercise because for years I did not want to do anything.
Well I am now just a few short days away from my surgery date and very excited about the road ahead. I know that it will be tough at times and I know that there are going to be demons from my past that I will have to face straight on, but I am willing to do it. I am tired of failed attempts to lose weight. No more eggs and grapfruit for me (this was the first diet I remember being on as a child). This surgery is going to help save my life.
