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Still going strong
Oct 13, 2007
My husband and I are going on a cruise next summer with some friends, so I am really looking foward to that and being able to get out and enjoy myself without feeling totally self concious. I have to say that I feel in denial about my weight loss sometimes. Like I will go to a store and try something on thinking that it will not fit me yet, but then when it does it kind of freaks me out. I guess I look in the mirror and still see the old me. I have to keep looking at pictures of me from the beginning and realize that I have changed.
Well I must go for now. Hope you all are doing well!
Cruise Control
May 22, 2007
Well everything has been going just fine for me. I weighed myself yesterday and was 340.1. I was tickled about that. I guess for me it was so exciting to know that I have already lost over 10% of my starting weight. I am certainly looking at this in little chunks of weight at one time in order to stay motivated. I don't think anyone can start out needing to lose 200 pounds and feel good about that big of a number. I am however excited becuase I have now lost 20% of the weight that I need to lose in order to get to my goal. Very exciting.
These last few weeks have been hard for me. My husband has been out of town and I find that not having him around is like cutting on my left arm. He is my best friend and just gets me and when he is gone there isn't anyone else here in Abilene who is like that for me. I did go walking with a lady from our Life Group last night. I was laughing because I was sweating like a pig when I was done and she didn't even look like she had walked.
Well for now my body is on cruise control and I am hoping that it keeps going. We are going to Vegas for our 10th anniversary in early to mid July and I would love to lose 10 to 15 more pounds before we got there. We will be meeting up with friends and family who have not seen me for awhile, so we will see if they notice or not. I can certainly tell that my body is changing. I am also hoping that my husband will notice a little bit of a difference even over the three weeks that he is gone. I can't imaging how much of a change it would be if he were on a tour to Iraq.
Hope you all are doing well.
Feeling restriction
Apr 30, 2007
April 30, 2007
So I can really feel restriction since my fill. It really makes a big difference. I have lost a little over six pounds this week and that is very good. I really did not feel like I had enough energy to get out and walk the way that I should, but this week is a new week and will be a fresh start. My initial goal is to walk 10 miles a week for four weeks in a row. When I am able to stick to that without a challenge, then I am going to up the ante somehow. I'm not really sure how that will be, but I will do it. Next week I am starting back to Curves. I am so excited about that. I love Curves and know that it makes me stronger when I am faithful about going. I was 346 on the scale this morning, so it is certainly moving in the right direction. Hope you all are doing well too.
First Fill
Apr 23, 2007
April 24, 2007
I know by far that it has been a while since I have posted. I feel like I have been in a holding pattern for the last three weeks or so. I know that I experienced what everyone else seems to. I had gotten to the point where I was on real food and could eat anything I wanted without a problem. Needless to say, I have pretty much stayed the same weight.
My husband and I have been walking quite a bit though, so I am sure that has helped. Last week we did 10 miles over the week. I bit off more than I could chew last Monday and ended up being really sore and could hardly move on Tuesday and Wednesday, but we got back on track on Thursday. I would have to say that one of the nicest things about Abilene is their park system and the walking paths at those parks.
Yesterady I had my first official fill. It was certainly nothing that was bad. Well I do not believe the experience of getting a fill was bad, but I can tell you that I was having a tremendous amount of gas pain the whole 4-hour drive home from San Antonio. I took some Gas-X when I got home and that seemed to help. I must say that the whole experience was not what I was expecting, but still not bad. I guess I overall did not know what to expect. He ended up putting 5 cc in my 10 cc Vanguard band.
I was very excited though about my weight. I had vowed not to weigh myself at all for the last week or so. I was just tired of getting on the scale and being the same or even up a pound or two. I have discovered that the doctor's scale definitely weighs me lighter than my scale here at home. When I initially went to see him my weight on his scale was 375 and my scale was 380. Yesterday on his scale I was 348.6. This morning by my scale I was 352, so I am really feeling good about my weight loss. I would think that a fill would even make that go faster.
Well I must go get to work. Hope if you are reading this that you are doing well also. Thanks for taking the time to watch me ramble :).
Happy Birthday To Me!
Mar 29, 2007
March 29, 2007
Well today is my 32nd birthday. I do not really appreciate getting older, but I will live. I am on purees this week and have found this to be the toughest stage yet. There just isn't anything that appeals to me in the pureed form. I know that in a few days I will be able to do soft foods, so I will live, no fear in that. I had my husband hide the scales because I would get on them every time I went to the bathroom which of course is not a good thing.
I do have to say that I am feeling sad today. When I talked to my mom on the phone last night she told me that a young girl in their church had lost her husband the other day because he was killed in Iraq. In a round about way I have friends who knew him and stuff and I just feel sad for her and their 6 month old daughter. The part that is hard for me is the guilt. I feel guilty because I have said goodbye to my husband so many times when he has left, many times to the middle east and other times to other places, but he always comes back safe and sound. There are times where I have certainly feared for his safety, but he has always come home in one piece. I have been a military wife for 10 years now and I know that my husband believes in what he is doing, but I can't help but feel guilty that I still have my husband and hers is gone. There first anniversary would have been April 8th, Easter Sunday. If you are a praying person and you are reading this, please pray for their family. His name was Sean Thomas.
First Official Work Day
Mar 19, 2007
Well today is officially my first day back to work. I did work a little bit over the weekend, but this should be my first full day in the chair typing the whole time (I'm a medical transcriptionist). Things have been going well. I have had relatively no pain. I had taken some pain medication before we left San Antonio the other day and then took a dose Friday night and Saturday before going to sleep and that is it. My sister-in-law, who is a nurse, tells me not to be a hero, but there is no heroism to it, I really don't have pain.
I did have hunger pain the other day, but I am now on full liquids. This morning my wonderful husband made me a protein shake with a scoop of Isopure No Carb Vanilla, a banana chunk, and a teaspoon of peanut butter. What a wonderful treat and I now don't feel like crying when I see a food commercial on TV because I actually feel satisfied with what I had. Who knew that full liquids could make this lady happy??
I want to tell everyone thank you for their well wishes and thoughts. It is amazing to think that so many people could be interested in anything that is taking place in my life, but it feels good as well. What terrific people!
Well I am off to work now. Actually I think I will call my friend first, but then I will be off to work. Oh also, as of this morning I was down to 357.3 from 380 right before my consultation with the doctor. My BMI is officially in the 40's. I guess I made it past a mini goal and did not really have to work at it. I'm sure the weight loss will halt between the time I start eating normal food and get a couple fills into my band.
Well I'm Back Home
Mar 16, 2007
Well we made it back home yesterday afternoon. I can say that I am certainly glad that we had to stay in San Antonio for a couple days after surgery. The moment I step foot into my own house I feel like I need to be doing something and I am certainly not well enough to be doing anything yet. I feel better, but I know I still have to take it easy. I have noticed that the better my body feels the hungrier I get and I don't like that feeling one bit. I am totally looking forward to some cream soups next week and other things that contain some calories. It feel so good to be home. Hope you all are doing well.
Losing Side Now
Mar 13, 2007
Well my surgery was yesterday and went very well. I have been feeling pretty good, but trying not to overdo it. I want my body to heal properly and to focus on that for the first six weeks. I had my surgery four hours from home, so we have to stay here in San Antonio until Thursday and then we will be able to make the drive home to Abilene. We have been doing heparin shots three times a day and I will have to continue doing that for two weeks. I am walking without a problem and really am not having a lot of pain right now. Overall I feel so much better than I was ever expecting to. I am hoping to work some over the weekend (I work from home as a medical transcriptionist. I will try to update as often as possible. The worst part is that I just have a laptop right now and the spacebar does not work very well. Very frustrating. Can't wait to get home and be able to type normally.
Night Before Surgery
Mar 11, 2007
Well, I just finished my first bottle of magnesium citrate and I am patiently waiting. I have so many mixed emotions about tomorrow. I am excited, scared, anxious, nervous, and just about any other emotion you can think of. I told my husband that it seems so strange that it is actually going to happen. I have been going back and forth about this since late 2004. I am so grateful for all the wonderful people that I have already met. There is just this nice little group of people I have started meeting that I hope will eventually be a terrific support system. I can't wait to be able to log on in the next couple of days and say that I am officially on the losing side.
