foolishgrrl_1
Update thus far...
Feb 10, 2013
So, on December 13 (i think), I got a call from my surgeon's office letting me know I was approved! Wow. I had to force them to submit my info back in November and hadn't heard ANYTHING. All of a sudden we were scheduling my surgery.
March 11, 2013. A Monday. It's coming up so fast. I could have pushed for a sooner date, but I wasn't mentally ready anymore. I was so gungho when I first started, I was mentally and emotionally ready. After I hurt my back, I was forced to delay everything and struggle with that recovery. Fun.
I broke the news to the mom's during our Christmas visit (near the end). My 2 nieces and 1 nephew, and my dad are the only people who know, other than Casey. January brought with it some disbelief and LOTS of food funerals and indulgence. I knew I needed to get back into the groove, back in the mental preparations. I bought some more protein, we had Syntrax Nectar, Fuzzy Navel and Vanilla. I bought the chocolate truffle too. All of a sudden I had this unnatural fear of drinking the stuff. Crazy, I know. I have to get my house cleaned, I'd like to go through clothes and do a super deep clean but haven't had the ambition. After all, I've been working a million hours it feels and all I do on my weekends is sleep. I need to motivate myself. I can justify sleeping Saturday, but I've just been lazy on my Sundays.
Today I had conversations with both of my parents about the surgery and if they are going to be able to make it out. 
My dad offered, but he's having his eyes done around the same time. Mom won't fly, and then mentioned just coming for a long weekend, wtf?? I don't suppose I'll need anybody after a few days, and it might be best to be by myself if I'm in a shitty emotional state. I just don't know.
All I know is that I made my mind up today to get my ass in gear. I stepped on the scale this weekend (in between my glutonous sandwich eating
) and it registered my ALL TIME HIGH 280.1. 
Holy fuck. So, tonight I made a protein drink and am having some fish and veggies. Tomorrow, I start my own personal pre-op, get my shit together diet to get my liver in better shape and start this weight loss!
