FourMyBoysandMe
A little update...
Apr 04, 2014
So today I am 5 months out from surgery, down 63 pounds from day of surgery, down 103 pounds from my high weight last summer. I am feeling absolutely amazing and do not regret my decision to have RNY. I have completed the Couch to 5K program, run in two 5K's, swim 1/4 mile 1-2 times a week at my gym pool, go for miles-long bike rides, and am just all around much more active than I've ever been in my life. I always feel the need to be moving! It's a great feeling.
I think the biggest struggle is still the mental aspect. Mentally, I am still a fat girl who loves food WAY too much. Most days I am all right, but every now and then I get hit with the desire to just eat EVERYTHING. I wouldn't say I got a "high" from bingeing in the past, but it was giving me something, it was filling me, literally and psychologically; it was comforting me. Last night I was overcome with the need to pig out, so I made myself go to bed at 8pm. 8PM!! But that's what I had to do to remove myself from the situation. I went to bed planning to make a giant dirt cake today and eat the whole thing. But you know what? I woke up this morning, and the need was gone. I know that if I distract myself long enough, it will pass. it always does. And it feels SO much better than waking up in the morning, feeling sick, bloated and hating myself for making all the wrong food choices the night before, (prior to surgery, this is how i felt EVERY day). I am so thankful not to be on that hopeless path any longer!
I go back for my 6 month post op visit on May 7, and I would love to lose another 10 pounds by then to really blow away my surgeon's office. Hopefully I can do it! Planning to just keep up my fitness routine and find some fun new ways to get my protein in.
I am loving this new life, and don't ever want to go back! Oh! One more AMAZING thing: Last night I got on my first pair of size 12 pants!!! OMG! I really can't remember the last time I wore size 12's, it has to have been in 2005. I am wearing them today and don't even care about the muffin top - they're size 12, ya'll!! :-D
For fun, here is a face comparison after losing 100 pounds. The pic on the left was taken July 4th, 2013, and the pic on the right was March 31, 2014.
