Insurance...

Oct 13, 2010

My surgeons office called and gave my dad the good news that TriCare has approved the gastric bypass surgery. That is amazing news... BUT.... at my appointment with Dr. Lord I was devastated when I got on the scale... I was SHOCKED, and embarrassed... I couldn't believe how overweight I had gotten. When talking about the surgery with him, he told me I needed to lose 75-100 pounds before he would perform the surgery on me. I was crushed. I felt like my 3 year battle had been for nothing. Now, I know he didn't say "No, you will not be having this surgery" but in my heart that's what it felt like. I hurt my back while in the office and I've been down for 2 weeks now. But, I have a couple tests next week; blood and an x-ray I believe. Then when I go back to see him he will slip a scope down my throat to look around. I have most of the side appointments at his office in November and early December. I go back to see doctor Lord and get weighed on November 22nd. I'm praying that this diet of salad, tuna, and broccoli is going to pay off... I'm tempted to just do a liquid diet next month just to be safe... I really can't keep living how I'm living. I feel like a big blob who just exists. I'm not "living" I'm simply taking up space, and let me tell you... I'm taking up A LOT of space these days. Sigh.

That's all for now I suppose. Maybe next time I'll have happier news. :(

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