Wooo.. It's been a long time but I'm back!!

Apr 06, 2011

So here I am yet again.. Can't believe I been gone this long but a lot has happened since August 2008!! So I lost 35 lbs on the adipex as I recall.. Shit happens tho!! Right?! So in Feb 2009 my husband started cheating on me..... yeah happens to the most of us.. We split up and got back together then again in July he started cheating again... Wow what a surprise right?! Yeah I know.. but after 6 1/2 yrs of "being faithful" (Yea right) I really thought that March was the first time.. Well only the first time he got caught of course! So finally in July he just didn't come home from work.. I was in such disbelief I called the police and turned him in for missing.. LOL.. wow such an idiot!! His friend, the police officer, came out and talked to me and finally made me realize he was probably cheating again.. which I knew in my heart before he even left me but tried to not believe. So anyways... best thing that could ever happen to me though! I finally got rid of the asshole that made me feel so lonely and depressed!!
So at the end of August/Beginning of Sept. I met the new love of my life Ramon! This guy makes me feel like I'm on top of the world! I swear I thought being ignored and what made me feel like I was an embarassment was because I was fat.. No way girlfriends.. It was because I had a jerk for a husband. Ramon is the type of guy who doesn't walk in front of his fat woman with her kids in the buggy but walks beside of pushing the bugging and every time we stop putting his arm around me or doing something that lets everyone know I belong to him.. He makes me feel like he is so proud to be with me! He treats me like I am the most beautiful woman in the world and doesn't even attempt to look at a pretty woman in front of me.. even if I am the one saying "Wow look at her I wish I looked like that she is beautiful!" He doesn't even pay attention.. he just says "baby you are beautiful." So sweet, I know! Anyways.. so around Halloween I decide that I want to try for a baby girl that I had wanted with my husband who didn't want anymore kids.. I already had to boys with my husband.. Wow.. 2 months after I meet the guy, I know! LOL So we get pregnant first try... Turns out its another boy.. Whoopdy dooo! I'm over it now and I love my Joseph but I have 3 kids and still can't get the thoughts of a baby girl out of my head! So Joseph is now almost 10 months old.. He was born a bit early but in the end he was okay.. At 35 weeks he weighed 7 lbs 12 oz! After my 6 weeks time frame to heal after having Joseph I went for the paperwork for my diet where I took adipex and my dr had left the office for a new job.. couldn't get all the required paperwork so I had to start a whole new diet!! Made me sooo frickin mad! I went to my new regular doctor almost a month ago and had some blood work done.. My blood pressure has been high since before my last pregnancy but not horrid high so no medication.. Test Results.. well I have high Triglycerides and I have Fatty Liver or whatever that is.. So after two weeks of trying to talk Ramon into having another baby (I know.. LOL) I get this news and I change my mind.. Of course!! So I decide if I ever want to have another baby or live a normal life, which to me is not being lazy and being able to play and wrestle with my kids and do stuff that skinny or fit women can do I have to lose weight!! I am now at 265!! My highest weight when I was pregnant with Joseph was 281. I never lose much after having a baby but I have to do this now!!
I want to get married to Ramon and we were going to have our wedding this year but oh boy would I love it if I was fit on my wedding day!! So I'm not sure yet cuz I was soo excited but I might wait a while to see how things go...I saw a dietician today and I am starting a 2000 calorie diet... I also got some good tips for the after lapband diet from a very good friend of mine who told me what her diet was like and I'm going to fit these protein shakes and fat free foods into my diet right now so that I'll be prepared and it will help me to lose weight faster instead of my regular foods which I had no idea how I was going to cut back on and still enjoy.. lol.. I CAN DO THIS!! I keep telling myself.. So I switched from Pepsi to Diet Dr Pepper soda and I'm determined!! I am thinking about trying the adipex again but not sure yet.. Wish me luck! Love to you all!!!

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