180 lbs. and stuck again ...
Oct 15, 2007
NOT TO MENTION - my hormones are completely out of whack!! I am so emotional these days, I cry for no reason, laugh for no reason, etc. I got my period again but now it comes when it shouldn't. I had it a month ago and then got it again two weeks later.
So ... today ... I'm feeling a little down. Hopefully next time - I'll be feeling better with some positive news!
I don't get it ...
Aug 13, 2007
I haven't lost anymore weight - I feel like I'll be stuck forever at the 185 mark. I go up and down a few lbs here and there but it always winds up back on 185 and I'm really sick of it. I even got a job and have been walking more and more and so this doesn't make any sense. It's frustrating, I'm sure eveyone goes thru it at some point but - I want to get over this hump so I can keep on keeping on .... grrr....
2 1/2 Months Post-Op
Jul 31, 2007
Well I've finally uploaded some pictures. I was hesitant because I wasn't sure if the results were visable to everyone - but when I put the pictures side-by-side like this - I can really see difference! My double chin and tummy are finally beginning to shrink. I am feeling so much better - I have energy now and I don't even have to drink coffee anymore!
I finally had my first fill - I missed two prior appointments, but finally I made it last week. It took my surgeon SIX TIMES one time he even bent the needle because he hit the metal on my port. My girlfriend went along with me for moral support - she said that by the time he was done she felt like she was going to throw up!
This is also the same friend whom has informed me that I've cheated to lose weight. I don't understand why she can't just be happy for me. I've tried over and over to explain this surgery to her. I've pled my case - which I would normally never do, but she is one of my closest friends - that's why this is especially painful to me.
Otherwise, life is good - I am so happy with my decision. I feel sorry for people who are trapped in their own bodies, like I was. I feel like I wasted too many years being fat - why did I wait so long? I am so thankful for my opportunity - I would do this surgery again in a heartbeat if I had to, I have no regrets -- only hope for the future!
Quick Update ...
Jun 22, 2007
I have minimal pain where my port is [sometimes] I wonder if that's normal. I was supposed to go see the surgeon yesterday, but I woke up late ... couldn't remember what time my appointment was [I had changed purses and lost my reminder card] so by the time I got through to someone [they didn't take the phones off answering service for 20 mins. after they opened] and they checked my appointment time - it was too late. I would have never made it in time, so I asked if I could call back to see if their were any cancellations but of course that wasn't an option and of course I can't get in again for another two weeks. Yesterday was supposed to be my first fill - I was so disappointed, I cried. I told my mom - I've gone through all of this and have yet to see any results, I just want to finally see something for my efforts thus far, but I guess that's just not how it's gonna work - I'm just gonna have to work harder!
Turns out ...
Jun 13, 2007
Tomorrow is 4wks Post-OP
Jun 11, 2007
I had an 'episode' Fri. night - The ER doctor seems to feel that it was associated with my Lapband - I am uncertain.
I felt nausea most of the day on Fri. but was able to continue eating and drinking normally. Later I woke at 2:45 am to myself gagging. I went to the bathroom and expected to vomit but instead I heaved and nothing came up. I did this for 4 more hours until finally my husband took me to the ER. When I checked in, the ER dr. gave me a shot in the butt to stop the nausea. It only helped a little. I continued to get sick. I was discharged fromt he ER and told to follow up w/my surgeon. Finally I was so exhausted I passed out at about 7 am.
He thinks I either ate too much or something irrated my stomach to the point of causing it to spasm hmm... I have never heard of such a thing. It was horrible and I'm scared to death of that happening again. I lost my voice from heaving so hard and still feel terrible today but
O well ...carrry on.
I saw my surgeon on Thurs. he was going to give me a fill already I was so surprised, however, I was NOT 100% healed and he said he couldn't do it yet. I go back in two weeks for my first fill - I'm so excited.
I am doing good. I am excited to be this far with minimal complications.
I am ready to begin the real work so that I can start to see some more results. I have not lost any additional weight despite the fact that I have been walking daily. I am careful of what I eat and try and keep my *eyes on the prize*
2 weeks post-op
May 29, 2007
9 days post-op
May 24, 2007
My kids came home last night and I'm so happy to see them, however, I forgot how much work they were ... lol. [6 year old twins, 2 year old and our 12 year old son] Today it's beautiful outside so we went to the park and for a little walk, but then I was tired and wanted to come home and lie down. I wish I had more energy. I think it will come in time. I am already thinking about my first fill - I want more restriction, because I feel like I am eating too much - but I'm not sure what normal is - obviously I don't really have anything to compare it to. I"m in the mushy stage right now, I admit I am NOT eating pureed foods from the blender. My incisions are healing, I am moving around mostly pain-free and feel relieved to be getting better, now I want to focus on LOSING these ugly pounds! That's all for today.
P.S. I gained ONE pound back! I'm so mad!
1 wk Post-op!
May 22, 2007
5/18/07 - 3 days post-op
May 17, 2007
Last night was good, I slept 6 straight hours - which was wonderful but then I woke up in ALOT of pain cuz it had been 7 hours since my last dose of pain medication - ouch! Anyhow ... I took it and I"m feeling much better - I'll probably try and go back to bed now. I"ll write more later ....
P.S. I know I'm just supposed to be resting and healing right now, but I couldn't resist weighing in ... I've lost 9lbs so far! I am so happy!