Normal is a setting on a dryer..

Apr 28, 2010

Life, wow what a ride.  Did I ever mention I hate roller coasters.    The highs have been through the clouds and the lows have sindged off the little hairs on my boney booty.  Having trouble in my marriage, why is that not a big surprise.  Trouble with attitude with my kids (nothing too bad) and finances are killing me with frustration.  My school direction has become unclear and I am discovering a new person in me that I am just not aquanted with.  I need a brain transfusion or maybe lypo in the brain to remove all the fluff and cobwebs..
Still wanting to feel and look sexy and brilliant and confident..OUCH.. I said it, that word.. CONFIDENT.  Who me??  Naaaa
not sure I will ever get to that point but I do have to say that sliding into a size 8, with ease, is an amazing feeling.  Just have to overlook the saggy, deflated ballon looking skin left behind.  Like scars from surgery, these stretch marks of my past former self are haunting and humilitating as I attempt to look beyond them to meet and get to know that girl behind. 
     So many amazing accomplishments and exciting things to come and yet stupid me concentrates on the flaws and imperfections.  Has the media really gotten to me, like some alien overtaking my brain, what the heck am I looking at and comparing myself to??  What is beautiful??  Yes, curves, a little wiggle (not alot), normal, average, somewhat perky breasts (although mine are in a forever state of depression) and that smile that says "I am ok with me and I can face the world with security, confidence, passion and laughter, umbrellaed with intelligence.and a wink of flirty winks..
     Surgery was the best investment I made and I wouldn't change a thing, but people please remember this is not a diet or a quick fix, it is a LIFE CHANGE!!!!  Think on that before you go in for surgery. 
     Lets be friends, supporters, encouragers and partners in crime as we fight/battle and rob that monster (food addiction) to the bitter or should I say sweet end!!!
Love and hugs to everyone...
Your friend..

By the way, did I mention I have lost 146lbs and I am only 30lbs away from goal!!!  YAAHHOOO!!!!!!!  So close and yet so far away...lol  Just kidding..  get ready peeps, when that magic number shows up unannounced on the scale, if you hear some strange shriel of a scream, it's ok... it's just me!!!!!!!

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