free4ever
15 lbs to go...
Sep 25, 2010
I am 1 year and 7months out and I am down 170lbs... I am so amazed at the transformation of my new found body and my new found health and energy.. I am rediscovering my idenity and finding a woman has been hiding beneath all the scars, hurt, and yes FAT.. now I have to make new friends with her and let her loose to be herself. The reflection in the mirror isn't yet what I am impressed with although the measuring tape and the clothes shopping are unbelieveablely fun and exciting...To buy clothes my kids can wear and share clothes is awesome.Got my nose pierced and looking into a new tatt.. also, I am afraid I am looking for a way out of my suffercating marriage, I have been miserable for so long and yet I just recently found my courage to stand up for my self and omg I found my voice!!! amazing...trying to find the exit door but in the meantime I have found that I wasnt physically starving (obviously) but omg have I been attention starved and just the looks, the stares, the offers and the sex appeal is producing a chemical in my body that gives me the greatest high I have ever experienced... I have the urge to dress up and go out every opportunity I get and saddly I dont wanna go with my hubby..He just doesn t make me feel good at all..
I realize Im in a dangerous spot right now but honestly I dont care...
I am however grossed out at my sagging, hollow areas of skin leftovers thanks to the weight loss.. ewww.. help... as long as I have clothes on I feel sexy, attractive and desireable, clothes off I feel disgusting and undesirable.. I do however keep reminding myself of wearing a size 4 and measuring a 27inch waist...
I have made an appointment with a plastic surgeon although I have no insurance and definately no money, I am just curious. i am also hiring a personal trainer to see if anything can be done to help those areas some...
I suppose the journey has really just begun...
so here is to the journey...Cheers everyone!!!
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About Me
Elizabeth City, NC
Location
24.3
BMI
Surgery
02/02/2009
Surgery Date
Aug 07, 2008
Member Since
