Frances T.

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That means I'm up 40.  It's not funny at all.  I look at this picture from before and I see myself going right back.  The other day I just starred in the mirror angry at myself.  Why do we do this to ourselves?  I can't seem to get control.  I'm supposed to turn it over to my God, but I don't even do that well.   GRRRRR...  

The battle of the bulge still continues.   I'm still a scale hore.   I was up to 178 got down to 172.5 this past Saturday.  Ate like  a pig the rest of the weekend and managed to gain back 5 pounds of the 6 that I worked so hard to loose.  Work hard for 3 weeks to gain back in 2 days.   GRRR... SELF Check!!!

I come here when I think I'm going to straighten up... but I never stick to it.  I'm trying to be disciplined.  I just don't have it.  I'm trying to convince myself that I have to make changes that will last forever.  Yes reach goals but go beyond that.  I really need to change the way I live.   I reach goals.. or I have in the past.  It's just once I reach the goal I relax or go back to what I know.  It's not work.  I'm lazy.  I want to change everything in my mind to make it permanent.  Make new style my preference over the old stuff.  If this is confusing to you, don't worry about it.  I'm trying to find something to cling to that will get me where I was (140) and stay there.

I'm still fighting it.  I need to concentrate on protein and less carbs.  I'm going to tell myself I'm allergic to bread.  Yeah... maybe that will work.  Carbs are killing me.  They go down so easy.  Tonight I grilled chicken and shrimp and stuffed jalepenos... yum...   I really didn't do to bad except the brocolli rice and cheese.  Could have skipped that one but didn't eat much.  Let's see what I weigh in the morning.  

Last week I was down to 154 after having a colonoscopy.  I didn't realize how much poop was in me.  LOL... Guess I need to get rid of it again.  I want to get to 150 in by Thanksgiving.  If I work at it, it will be doable.

I'm up to 160.  I guess that's the 20 pound bounce back.  Took less than a year to put that 20 pounds on.  Somehow I've manage to keep it there for the past couple of weeks.  I'm trying to loose some again, but it is so freakin' hard.  I'm not giving up.  I'm looking at 3 of my before pictures all day along in front of my computer at work.  I think it is helping.  I really don't want to go there.  
(((HUGS))))

As a matter of fact, I don't want to gain back any and as of this morning I have gain 11 pounds.   GRRRRR.  I'm going to try to start posting food facts to see if that will get me back in gear.

B-  3-coffees with protien - 66 - 118 - 354 calories
B- SF Cookies - 225 calories - 1g P
L- Grilled chicken tenders - 100 calories - 19g P


 To be continued...

In your eating habits.   I did.  I felt I could eat whatever I wanted and would maintain or loose weight.  It's not going to happen.  You will gain the weight back.  This morning I weighed 148.5.  That's 8.5 pounds more than my lowest weight, which was my goal.  I don't want to go back to where I was.  In my support group last month they said that most WLS will gain 60% of their weight back after surgery.  That generally starts around 18 months post op.  I'm 18 months out and it has already started.  I know the rules.  I know what I'm supposed to do, but I'm not in compliance.  I'm one that has had minimal problems post-op.  I can eat anything I want without problems with the exception of sugar.  I sometimes feel like I've been cheated.  I wish I got sick when I ate bread, beef, or anything that was not good for me.  NOT the case.  So I know the battle has really just begun.  I can't let this beat me.  I didn't go into this just to be at my goal for a few months, not for a few years.  I want this to be for life.  I come here so those that are still in the honeymoon phase, loosing the weight... be prepared.  Some of us will get lax and gain a percentage of the weight back.  Don't let it happen to you.

Believe it or not, I didn't post it the day it happened, but I am now.  I have to have some record some where to say I did it!  I never thought I could make it but I did.  I weigh 140!!!!  It happened on September 18, 2009 - one year and 9 days post op.  To tell the truth I'm up 3 pounds but I'm blaming that on mother nature.  That woman is driving me crazy.  I'm sure it will go down again.  I've been really good.  I'm walking daily.  Not much, but I'm doing it daily.  Thanks to all my WLS friends for the love and support the past year.  I still can't believe I did it!!!

One year Surgiversary!!  It really went by very quickly.  So much has happened.  I'm one pound from my goal.  I've had a crazy year health wise, that really wasn't too related to the WLS.  My cervical neck completely crapped out on me and I am currently recovering from have 2 disc removed and a fusion on my neck.  I've had an ESI series before the neck surgery and an EGD because my stomach is still producing acid plus that double bowel obstruction.  The bottom part of my body feels great.. (below the neck.)   I go back to work on Monday.  I'm so happy I had the WLS and really think this is still my new beginning.  I think once my back is fixed I am going to be so healthy.   I'm already so much better than 10 years ago and looking forward to the next 10 and more.  If you are thinking about it, for me, it was the best thing I've ever done for ME!!!

Well we had a wonderful time!  We (my brothers and sister) got together for the first time in years to celebrate my Dad's 77th birthday.  My brother from Mesa, Arizona, My sister than lives here but works out of LA, and I joined my brother and dad in Mississippi.  It was unforgetable.  We laughed so much.  Everyone of us had tears in our eyes at one point or another just from laughing.  It was amazing and I can't wait to do it again!!  Time for pictures... Oh I didn't gain anyvweight while I was there... but I didn't lose any either. 

Me fightin' the GATOR..

My Daddy!  I love him so much!                                                                    My Brother is CRAZY!

Me and my step sister...

My family eat at Farmers Market in Hattiesburg everytime we are there!!!

My Wonderful - Crazy - Family!!!

Me.. on the Alligator..