Gabygee
13 months out, 110 pounds off me
May 23, 2012
I had actually made it down to 129 pounds, but am currently holding at 133.I really wish I could get my head around this "That's not good enough" vibe - it is definitely good enough, it's way better than what I had initially thought I could achieve.
And yet ... there's that little monster inside that says "you're not exercising enough, you need to lose more ..."
The monster is half correct - I should definitely exercise more.
But as for losing - hmmm. I thought I would be quite happy to stay around the 130 mark, and leave it there.
The exercise issue is thorny.
I had started running back in February, joined the Running Room's Learn to Run programme.
I stuck with it three times a week for 6 weeks.
I did have a hard time, and I was almost the slowest in our group (there was usually one injured individaul slower than I) but I stuck with it.
We had reached the "5 minutes running-1 minute walking" stage, and were doing 5 k over hills, when I suddenly experienced sharp stabbing chest pains.
They immobilized me. I had to stop running, clutching my chest, and waited for them to subside - which they did, after about 8 minutes.
So after consulting with the instructor and my doctor, I decided to join the Walking Room people instead. I go about once a week now.
I haven't experienced chest pain since, but with my history of heart problems, I do need to pay attention.
Then I experienced a difficult and mysterious problem at work one day. For six hours, I went through something called Global Transient Amnesia - I couldn't recognize people or names or numbers. It was disconcerting, and confusing. I felt quite helpless.
My memory is my stock in trade, especially at work - it's what makes me so good at my job. So losing that would be a terrible blow.
It was accompanied by a dull headache in an unusual spot in my noggin, and panic/confusion.
I've seen my doc, and she's sent me for a CT scan - we'll see what comes of it.
It's just a lesson that not all health issues are weight-elated. Even after all my hard work, I will still experience serious health issues, and must pay attention to them.
Lesson learned. Work in progress.
