GailinRI
It's coming
Jan 09, 2010
It's coming and I'm so scared.... Thursday I meet with the Dr. for the first time.... I'm so afraid - what if I FAIL again - like I have so many times before.... I have so much going on right now with personal and business problems and I'm "loosing it" and wonder HOW even with the band will I be able to pass the snowballs and ice cream and NOT buy them.... What is going to stop me???What if I can't do this..... what if I'm not strong enough or at this point even care enough????? I'm so scared... I just want to run I'm so sick of crying and feeling bad about myself and just with it would all end..... What if I'm hopeless and unable to do this?
I'd like to be able to say to myself - Gail this is just how you feel today - but I don't know... I feel like my world is coming to an end and feel so closed in.... What if I can't stop eating or if I start okay like every other time and then FAIL AGAIN........
