Jenn K

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New Year, New resolve?
I'm 31 years old now, my son is turning 3 next month, and I am now up to a size 18, 223 pounds.  My asthma is back and my medication list has increased.  I get sick more oftem and my hair is falling out.  I take Nexium fairly regularly for severe, shooting stomach pain, and my eating is joyless and out of control.  I do not exercise, my knees pop when I go up and down stairs, and I have moved to a new city in a new state.
I'm in Virginia now and since I have no friends here, I am going to try to join a WLS support group to begin to remedy some of my problems.
I'm a REAL WLS patient with REAL problems that I'm sure many people suffer. Here's to a new year!

Well, I had RNY 2.5 years ago and went from 255 to 170 pounds. I was a size 10 and healthy. Then I had a baby, who is now 8 months old. I'm back up to 195, size 16, and I cannot get this weight off. I cannot go to the gym, so we tend to walk a lot. I still take my protein shakes and vitamins, but I feel no restriction anymore. Its like I never had surgery. I guess I'm just owning up to the fact that I feel back to my old body, even though I know I'm not a 255 lb size 22. I feel healthy, but my vanity is insulted by the big wiggly tummy that is sticking around.

Wow, I don't feel like a bariatric patient anymore, I can tell you that. My son is now 10 weeks old. I gained 34 pounds with the pregnancy and have lost about 14. I am finding it hard to eat well and take care of myself while trying to take care of the baby and the house. But I guess it is just something I'll learn.

We are moving to Alabama in June of this year and just bought our first house! Hubby is getting transferred down there and I'm just excited to be an hour from my sister and 3 hours from my parents. I admit I miss the south, just not the humidity or mosquitos!

As this is the last week of the year, I thought I'd put up a last post for the year too.
I'm feeling well all around, considering. I am having a VERY healthy pregnancy and growing an active, healthy BOY. My blood sugars are a bit wacky, but I am trying. It is amazing how hard it is to resist cravings for sweets when you are 8 months pregnant, moody, and always hungry.

I have gained 28 pounds as of 34 weeks pregnant. This disappoints me because I thought I would be one of those "special" people who only gained the bare minimum and dropped every pound in the first 3 months after the baby is born. HAH! I know it could be worse (esp. if I hadn't has WLS), but I was so hoping for that 30 pound total gain. As long as the baby is healthy though, who am I to be selfish and complain?

I'm really looking forward to going on maternity leave so I can be in PJs all day, sleep as much as I want, and lay down instead of sit at a desk all the time. Oh! And be close to a bathroom. Only 2 more weeks of work!

I have ceased updating since my weight loss had stopped completely at about 170. I am ok with that and extremely comfortable. Now, I am pregnant with my first child and due in February! We tried for a baby before surgery, but nothing was happening. I was beginning to think that I couldn't get pregnant. Now, 90 pounds lighter and 2 weeks off birth control, WHAM! Baby! So, there you go. I am now 2 months pregnant and I've gained 3 pounds (by my scale, not the evil Dr. scale). I'll try to keep the weight gain up to date on here to help out anyone who might be curious.



Well my weight went up to 175 and now it is back down to 172. But I bloat so badly during the day that gain at least an additional 3-4 pounds in water weight throughout the day. Which is making it harder to get dressed in the morning! What fits in my room at 6, is WAY too tight at work by 2.

4/17/07 (166) Today is my one year anniversary of my surgery. I have lost 89 pounds and still have 16 more to go. I'm kind of fed up with this whole obsession over wls in general, so I'm really not in the mood to post. Maybe another day.

4/23/07 (168) I am sick of these 3 pounds bouncing up and down. I have been to the gym 3 times this past week (proud of myself). Hubby and I have been trying to get up early and go together before work. We get to hang out together and get the workout out of the way so that we can vege after work. I think I have been slacking on my protein and water (thanks to Dana's new protein train post), so I have been upping the protein. I tried Special K protein water in Tropical Blend. Its not bad, but still kind of expensive for just 5g of protein. I just don't enjoy eating jerky or cheese sticks. I'll keep looking for my protein-y snack.

4/30/07 (169) It helps me to put these weekly weights down here. So, up another pound and I'm all swollen, so it's "fat pants" day. I'm wearing so much spandex under my clothes and my belt is tight and I just feel like putting on a mumu and going back to bed. But I don't really want to lose a lot more weight. I have come to think like this: A normal weight for my height is 150. At 166, I look just like my 110-pound grandma in the face. If I lost 19 pounds, I don't know how bad I would look. I am beginning to miss my old face. Not the swollen, pre-op one, but the fuller, 3-months post op face. Now I really do look older and more grandma-like. So, I decided that at 169, I am 4 pounds overweight. I want to get down to 165 and stay there. Which will be hard since my body thinks that it likes 169.

3/04/07 (170) - Well, I woke up at 3:10AM this morning and dressed in the other room. I ended up wearing 2 sports bras, the one on top being a long-length Champion and the one underneath, a short hook-and-eye Champion. I wore spandex bike shorts and capri running pants over them. Then a moisture-wicking Champion t-shirt from Target. I laced my new Saucony shoes with Red Laces to prevent childhood obesity, and I clipped on my running chip, which records your time when you cross the finish sensor map. When I got out of my car at the park n' ride to catch my ride down to LA, my bib number Fell Out of my bag! I, of course, did not realize this until I got down to the race. So, there are not pictures of me with my number. Oh well. I will get Brad to take one when he gets home. I walked for 6 minutes to warm up, and then I did the run a block, walk a block strategy. It was working great right up until the last 1/2 mile when I wanted to die. But I did run as much as I could without my vision going all blurry. I guess I'll just have to work on beating my time (46:20) for the Revlon 5K in May.

3/20/07 (169) I have had no weight loss in two weeks. Not even my period jarred a pound loose. I have been wavering between 169-170 since mid-December. Maybe I'm done? I know I have a lot of extra skin, but at this point, I'm really not willing to go through surgery to get anything taken off. If I did thoiugh, I think my boobs would be first, just because I do not have and cannot find a bra that fits. The skin under my armd flops out and is really irritating unless I am wearing a sports bra all the time. And even then, there is no guarantee. I still have days where I feel like a heifer. Yesterday was one of them. I think my face and legs are the only parts of me that look thin. People have actually told me that my belly skin makes me look fatter, especially when I sit down.

3/26/07 (169) Still no weight loss, but I didn't exercise as much as I could have last week. I have been using Aspercreme on my hands almost daily now. I never used to have pain in my hands and I'm not sure why I do now. But the cream helps for the time being. My asthma is acting up and I really need to get in to see the doctor about my Advair. (Man, I'm product name-dropping, aren't I?) Be well.

2/5/07 (169) I lost that pesky pound that I gained last week, but I am about to be all PMS-y, so I'm sure that little f-er will be coming back. I exercised 5 days last week for a minimum of 30 minutes each time. I joined the President's Challenge. Its a program aimed at getting federal employees more active by letting us compete with other federal agencies. Since I'm WAY competitive, I joined. What the hell, right? I went shopping and found the best bargain! I bought a $430 Tahari jacket (size 14) for $25!!! It fits like a glove, so I've been telling myself that designers always run small and it fits more like a Junior's jacket.

2/12/07 (169) No weight loss this week, but I'm on my period, so that is probably why. I got to the gym twice this week, running both times. I really need a new sports bra, so I'll be looking for one this weekend.. in a size MEDIUM! I feel skinny today, which is a huge deal because I have been suffering from a bit of body dismorphia lately. I feel like I am a lot bigger than I actually am. Shopping seems to help, but it gets pretty expensive pretty fast!

2/20/07 (166) WooHoo with the weightloss! I had family visiting this weekend, so I didn't get in all my fluids and I'm paying for it. Ugh. But I also didn't eat a whole lot, so maybe that's why I lost? I still haven't gotten a sports bra, but this week I plan on hitting the gym hard to make sure I can do this 5K next weekend. I learned that I can drink and drink, but I cannot get to a point where I am DRUNK. I think this is a good thing to find out. Scary, but a good thing nonetheless.

2/26/07 (169) I gained 3 pounds. Yuk, eew, and gross. I blame alcohol, apple pie, and Pizza. Good grief I have not eaten so much pizza in one week before. It was all thin crust, but still. No more pizza for moi. I am actually doing a day or two of all liquids. For 2 reasons, One: to prove to myself that my mind is more powerful than my stomach, and Two: to see if the liquids will allow my pouch to go back to the size it is supposed to be. I think it is stretched more than it should be at 10 months out. I can eat 2 slices of pizza for goodness' sake! Yesterday at lunch I ate: 2oz salisbury steak, 3 bites mashed potatoes, 3 bites steamed veggies, a dinner roll, (then 30 mins later) a protein bar and a mini bag of popcorn. Unreal, huh? And I still wasn't full. After I went home from work, I had: 5 triscuits and 1oz of brie. Then 4 hours after that, 2 eggs, 1oz cheese, 2 slices turkey bacon, and almost 2 slices of high-protein, low-carb bread. Then an hour later, I ate a slice of apple pie and 1/2c SF ice cream. So, now you see why I am doing the liquids today. I kind of scared myself yesterday.

1/3/07 (169)- Well I neither lost nor gained a pound while on vacation. I tried my best to drink enough water, but I didn't deny myself any treats. I just had a little bit and all was well. I am now into size 10 jeans (levis), and I tried on Juniors clothes since I was doing so much shopping and junior's clothing is so much cheaper! Well, there is a reason it costs less. It was all cruddy and made for people with no butts. But I got into a size 11 pant and size 9 skirt. I bought a ton of clothes on vacation and haven't even had a chance to wear them all yet! And this is the best part. Two words........ TUBE TOP! My friend told me I looked like "sex on a stick" so I had to get it. Hahahahah!

1/23/07 (168) I'm down a pound and my size 10 Levis are feeling a bit loose. Maybe I should dry them on high or something. I found out that a tummy tuck before a baby is incredibly painful. Carnie Wilson says that because the muscles are sewn too unnaturally tight, the stretching hurts even more than it would normally. So, good to know. I got all my 9 month blood test finished today, but it will take them 2 weeks to get the results, so my appointment will have to wait a while. I hope to lose another pound by then. HOPE being the key word.

1/29/07 (170) ARRRGHHHH!!! I gained 2 pounds; what the hell?! Oddly enough, I fit into size 8 Levis last night. I was all happy in the Kohl's dressing room and then I get on the scale this morning. Bye bye 160's! *furious* I sit and stare at my extra skin, hating it, fearing the scars and pain it will take to remove it. I hate trying on bras because all it does it squeeze out my disgusting hanging boob/arm skin. I can't decide what I hate more, the skin under my arms on my ribcage, or the tummy skin. I even have flab on my back! And I did something truly stupid last night.... I tried on bathing suits. I tried on size 10 suits and while they fit, oh my god. It looked like a pale-skinned blob was emerging from under all that lycra, coming to take over the world. Run for your lives! Its the blob! I hug up the swimsuits and vowed never to be naked again. I should just start showering in my clothes. AND, to make matters in the dressing room even more scary, I am going to the Air Force Ball in September. I need a ball gown. Oh boy. I tried on some at Dillards last night to just see what I would need to hide/accent on my body. I can squeeze into a size 14 dress. No fair! I have not come so far and gotten my butt into a size 8 jeans to be relegated back to a 14 dress! I felt like a lard butt and went home.

1/31/07- Just a short update. I went shopping on sunday and tried on bras as well. I was in a 36C!!!

12/4/06 (171) No weight loss this week, but no gym either. So I understand. Its been incredibly cold and I have been taking care of a sick husband. The whole base is sick, so I must forgive myself for not going to the germ-infested gym.

12/11/06 (170) I lost a pound! Yay! *happy dance* I have actually been trying to eat more (sometimes to my detriment... I hate that full feeling). I am excited about Christmas and fully intending on concentrating on my fluids. I am awful at getting in fluids on vacation, so that will be my main focus while I'm at my parent's house.

12/18/06 (169) Another pound gone even while on my period. I'm impressed. These Christmas cokies are killing me. I took a big step today and threw away a whole plate of perfectly good cookies. It still hurt a little, but I felt so relieved when they were in the trash. I can't believe I had the willpower to do it, but I did! I have been drinking 3 protein shakes a day and I can really feel it in my energy level. I no longer want to crash at 2pm. I don't take cat naps on the couch after work anymore. I do eat about an ounce or two of cheese when I get home each day, but I think that phase might be on its way out too. I am still in a 10 pants, 12 jeans, 14 dress, 9.5 shoes, and L tops. I am having touble with bras and the extra skin under my arms flopping out from under the bra strap. I know the cups on these bras are too big, but when I go to try on the next cup size down, or even the next strap size, they both squeeze the skin even worse. I think it is because I have stretched out this bra or something. Either way, I might be making a trip to Creative Woman early next year. For the time being, I am wearing a jockey camisole under my tops at all times to keep the rolls of skin at bay.