It's been so long, but it's a new day...

May 05, 2014

It's been almost 5 years since my last post.  I didn't have surgery as I had hoped.  I got through everything and when they called to schedule my surgery the company I was working for had changed our insurance plan (even though I was very open about my journey) and bariatrics was no longer covered.  That was such a hard thing to deal with and when I went to the owner to talk to her she actually said to me "well I guess you'll have to do it the old fashion way"  I couldn't believe someone could be so cold...meanwhile totally glad she suggested that cause I hadn't thought of that before...lol

However, I learned that I can handle anything that is thrown my way.  That was not the right time for me to have surgery and obviously God knew that as well.  My grandmother who adopted and raised me had passed away in May of 2009 and my younger brother had passed away in November of 2009.  My daughter was having such a hard time dealing with my grandmother's death that she had to be put in therapy...and through all that I actually thought it would be a good idea to have WLS.  SMH...I can't believe that I was going to put myself through that kind of change without allowing myself time to grieve properly.  I was so busy taking care of everyone else I really forgot about myself.

Thankfully God didn't leave me.  He brought me through this rough time in my life and now almost 5 years later....it's time.  Time to really focus on health and being a better role model for my daughter, who's now 13.  When I met with Dr. Heider and his team on 4/16 and then again on 4/29, I knew that this was truly MY TIME.  They are all amazing and I have 6 months of documented weight to get through for insurance purposes, but I'm so ready to be on board.  And I'm so happy to be able to actually post something on my page instead of just reading on the site.

My next appointment for weigh-in is on 5/27....can't wait!!!

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