Four Year Surgiversary

Dec 04, 2010

Wow...today has been four years since Dr. Rawlins gave me the second chance at weight loss surgery success.  In some ways it seems as though it has just been since yesterday and in other ways it feels like decades.  This past year has been a very tiring one and not without a lot of stress but it is going to be ending on a happy note for our family...we are planning a wedding and that is something so wonderful to look forward to next year.  

My regain from the lowest weight has hit the 20# mark but it still only puts me seven pounds above my surgeon's goal.  I don't like the feeling of dragging this extra weight but it is a far cry from the 268 pounds I hauled around at my highest weight and accept it humbly and never forget that it is a daily challenge. 

Things i'm still good at:  eating off tiny plates and using demitasse spoons and seafood cocktail forks.  If I use a larger plate at a party or a relatives house I always take too much food!  Those little plates are so important to me. 

Still very good at my vitamins and supplements.  Now that it is the dreary time of year already the vitamin D has come back into the regimin too. 

Also I'm still all about food substitution and not living in diet mode.  Though I use the term 'diet' for my foods to keep them seperate from the rest of the family's things, those are just my good old regulars now.  My kitchen is never without diet cocoa, good quality protein powders, splenda, stevia and sugar free coffee syrups.  Bread is back in my life now but it is a condiment and not a meal.

I'm still very active but not doing formal exercise like I should.  You won't find me sitting around being sedentary unless it involves reading diy wedding blogs.  

Ok, so for the bad:  Water.  I don't drink enough.

Coffee.  I drink way too much.

Vegetables....not eating enough of them.

Fatigue:  constant companion.  Probably mostly from middle age, caffiene, chronic insomnia and dehydration. 

Food journalling:  just don't get around to it.  Ditto meal planning.  Dumb of course but I'm just being honest.


So another post-op year has passed and I'm looking forward to the future.  Melissa from our group and my surgery-twin said a long time ago that we should 'Pay it Forward' and I think of that phrase often.  I try to remain a good example, open to answer questions of any who are interested in weight loss surgery and willing to help encourage and listen to newer postops.  It is great going to support group and getting recharged by their excitement and hopes for the future. 

For a celebration meal tonight I am eating chinese takeout.  Not good healthy stuff but the few bites I can manage of the stuff i love are celebratory in their taste and thrilling knowing that this one meal is going to feed me for days!  :) 

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