ghouliegal
Oops! Its been awhile!
Jul 23, 2009
Its not that I don't want to update on my progress, its finding the time! Its hard to just sit around anymore. With all this great energy I have lately I don't want to waste it sitting in front of the computer. I love being out and about. I have the energy to clean my home on a daily basis (its the WANT I struggle with *giggle*) But I think about how I used to just crave the couch and a good show. I TIVO most things I want to watch so I can snuggle up later and watch them, but even those shows are going unwatched because I cant sit still for more than 20 minutes! I used to be tired ALL THE TIME. All the time. Now it amazes me how I can go go go all day and feel just fine. No need to stop and take a breather. I watch my uncles dog for him every now and then. He lives up in the hills and his house is on a hill, so when you walk the dog its downhill for the first part, then uphill to get back home. I would (and this is no exaggeration) have to stop 3 or 4 times on the way back up because I couldn't go another step, my lungs burning from gasping. Now....not a problem! I can run up the hill with the dog all the way!!!! Its things like that I love to stop and think about. How having this surgery and losing all this weight has sooooo bettered my life in every way possible. I changed my avatar, and made it a "before and after" photo of my 100 pound weight loss thus far, and I showed it to my husband.....and you know what he did?? He started crying! He was soo proud and so happy for me. He says he just cant remember me being the "before" picture at all. Because he never saw me that way. (what a good man)My eating habits right now are horrible (obviously not in comparison to what they used to be) but they are getting bad. The old cravings are back and my brain telling me that I NEEEEED that. Indian food especially is my downfall. Cheese Its are my downfall! I found that I can eat 2 cookies and not dump.....arg. I am pushing myself too far. Today is the day I am going back to basics. No more snacking!!! Just say no! LOL. Its my drug. It always has been. Its like being a heroine addict and being clean for 8 1/2 months and then falling off the wagon. I have been tinkering with the idea that my hormones have a lot to do with my sudden cravings and "hunger" so I need to get that check out. I also have been thinking about calling my dietitian and seeing if she has any classes I can re-take just to learn the basics again. I have fallen so far off track I feel, that I need someone to smack me back into reality.
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About Me
San Jose, CA
Location
27.8
BMI
Surgery
10/30/2008
Surgery Date
Aug 29, 2006
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