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Jun 20, 2010

I have once again not posted in way too long.  A whole year has passed!  Where has the time gone? 

So a fast update is that I am 146 lb still & tend to just stay right there no matter what I do.  I am happy that my tool is working for me, because I do not always work my tool the way it was meant to be used.  I have good days & bad days, but over all I think my eating is pretty balanced.  If I have a bad day & eat too much or the wrong foods, I try to make up for it the next day or two. 
I am not exercising regularly & I have a lot of guilty/worried feelings attached to this issue.  I have had a rough 8 months with my chronic pain.  My doctor thinks I have Fibromyalgia & I have been trying to do the best job I can with what my body is doing right now.  I stretch a lot & I am beginning to do some basic Yoga.  Even that makes me very sore, but I am in pain if I just lay around too.  So I have decided I might as well live my life, take the pain meds when I really need them, & just take it one day at a time.  My goal is to start water aerobics this week.  It is so hard to get myself to go when I am hurting, but I am just going to do it!

I am planning to have plastic surgery this fall & I am researching my options with an obsession!  I want to have a BL/BA & a tummy tuck together without compromise.  I would love to have a LBL as well.   But, my wallet may have something to say about that especially if I do it here in the states.  I am looking for PS in Mexico, but I am not sure I feel secure doing that.  There are a lot of reasons I am concerned about being away from home.  Due to my health issues & the fact that I have young children at home.  My oldest baby is 7 & she has very special needs.  I know I will not be able to care for her physically after PS, but I would be so anxious if anything happened to her why I am off recovering far from home.   I know there are good surgeons in & out of the states, but the facts are that we do not have the money or the credit to spend too much money on my PS.  Ideally I would like to spend no more than $12K but I also do not want to only be able to do one area for that much money!  I am searching the boards looking at pictures, reading posts, & trying to figure out what is best for me.  I even posted "before PS pics" so that others with similar body types can chime in on what they had done & hopefully share what worked out for them.  The one thing I do know is that not having PS is not an option for me.  I thought I would be fine without it, and never even considered this part of my journey (duh right?).  But, I do not feel like I will be happy with the way I look unless I repair the breasts & the abdomen.  I am not trying to be a VS model.  I just want to feel "womanly" again.
So that is it for now, I will keep you all posted on my progress!

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Sacrametnto, CA
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09/18/2008
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Aug 13, 2008
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