Shrinking Gingerbread

~ 2-8-2011 ~ weight 139

Feb 08, 2011

Making a public statement to help me stick with it.

I have noticed my portion sizes getting larger and larger again, and when I go too long without eating I feel like I'm STARVING.  So starting today I am going to use protein drinks as my meals and snacks (except for dinner which I eat with my daughter).  I am going to do this for three days.  Then starting Friday I will soft solids like yogurt, cottage cheese, soups; and do that for three days (again except for one meal a day).  I need to work to shrink my pouch back down to a size that allows me to use it for the purpose it was intended.
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~ 01-30-2011~

Jan 30, 2011

HAPPY 5 YEAR RE-BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

It has officially been 5 years today since my bypass surgery.  Here are my stats as of today...
Weight: 138
Pant size: 8 (some 6s)
Shirt size: S/M
Food control: average
Self esteem: most days above average, but we all have weak moments

I am very proud of my progress, my stability, my ability to recognize myself slipping back into old negative food addictive habits, and my acceptance of my body, my positives, and my weaknesses.  I still plan to have a tummy tuck and breast augmentation someday when finances allow, but for the time being I am committed to being the best I can be with what I have been given.  I try to incorporate a workout plan in my daily life…although I slack from time to time I am committed to the long-term goal of being healthy.  I still have a love/hate relationship with exercise, but I understand how important it is to my self-confidence and overall health, plus it sets a good example to my little girl (who is 10 now!!).

On a personal note, since my last post I have divorced, bought another Ninja, changed jobs, started dating, learned a lot about myself and my choices, and just recently have decided to go to college full-time w/n a year.  Life changes quickly and I feel prepared now to tackle all the challenges thrown at me. 
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~ 10/03/08 ~

Oct 03, 2008

 

First and foremost let me grovel at the feet of all my avid readers!  I absolutely cannot believe how long it has been since I blogged.  It has been a whirlwind 10 months.

 

So lets see, where to pick back up at…I am no longer in a size 4.  I have found I can comfortably maintain a 6 with minimal effort.  If my 6s start to get tight I cut back on my late night snacking and add a couple workouts to my week and slip easily back into them.  I am confident if I were to put more effort into it I could stay in a 4, but I am TOO BUSY for that.  Besides my husband thinks I am too skinny in a 4 (imagine that…ME…TOO SKINNY!!!!).  If it were up to him I would be in an 8 all the time. 

 

What else---One bit of bittersweet news: Jimmy and I are trying to have a baby (that is ecstatic news actually); in fact we plan on 2 more babies. The sad news to that is since we are trying to be a financially responsible married couple we have decided to sell our motorcycles and buy a mini-van.  We already sold my NinjaBread :-(   But on the bright side we plan to buy that mini-van tomorrow :o)  Jimmy is still trying to sell his Honda CBR1000rr.  Anyone looking to buy???? Heehee

 

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~10-29-07~

Oct 29, 2007

OK…  BIG NEWS… BIG BIG NEWS….

 

I finally broke down and tried on some new jeans (with the push of my b/f) and OMG OMG OMG I am a freaking SIZE 4!!!!!!  ME… A SIZE 4 !!!!!  It is totally unfathomable (is that even a word?).  Oh, and I discovered that a woman’s size Small top is the same thing as a Child’s Size 16.

 

I am wearing SIZE 4 jeans and A GIRL’S SIZE 16 shirt!!!!  I just can’t even comprehend that.


~10-26-07~

Oct 26, 2007

I know, I know, I am a bad OH member!!!  Not really a lot going on weight loss wise so not much to mention.  Still hovering around the same 3-6 pounds left to loose to be at my "goal". 

Let’s see... other than weight issues... I put purple flames on my Ninja, looks really cute!  I am already ready to upgrade to a big better bike, looking at a 2007 Honda CBR600rr White/Silver.  It is sooooo stinking pretty!  But still has a bad-a$$ quality to it, not like my little Ninja. 

Ummm, what else....well, my daughter is 6 years old now and in 1st grade.  She reaches my armpit she is so tall.  She is actually the tallest girl in her class.  She says she wants to ride on the back of my motorcycle.  I tell her she has to be able to ride her bicycle w/o training wheels first... no worries... the little stinker can't even ride WITH training wheels so it will be a while before she is ready to be on the back w/me.  Good thing since I am in NO WAY ready to ride w/her either.

Oh I did think of one issue I am having.  I have been falling into the old over eating patters of my past stemming from my Obsessive Overeating Disorder.  I am still seeing my therapist once a month, but it continues to be a struggle.  I refuse to be one of those statistics who gained all their weight back 3-4 years after surgery so I constantly battle.  I don't think I will ever be "cured", but I can do my best to raise above the self-punishing behaviors at least the majority of the time.
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~4-16-07~ 107 pounds lost (3 pounds left to goal)

Apr 15, 2007

Sorry I haven't been updating lately.  Started dating again (man does that take up a lot of time).  Plus now that I have a MOTORCYCLE I try to spend my free time practicing... trying to build up my confidence and skill level so I can enjoy it to the fullest this summer!!!!!  By the way, as you know my nickname is Gingerbread... well, my biker name is Ninjabread.  Too funny!

So here is my update: Still wear size small tops (YAY), and now am officially in a size 6 pant (holy freaking cow!!!!!).   My weight fluctuates between 127 and 133... depending on how much snacking I do.  I still plan on getting to my goal of 125 but I acknowledge the fact that it will take WAY more exercising to accomplish than I am putting forth right now.  

I have excess skin on my stomach and chest that really really really bother me, and no matter how many crunches I do it will always be there.  I an considering PS someday WAY down the road after I am done having children.

Well, guess that is all for now.  T~T~F~N


~1-08-07~ 104 pounds lost (6 pounds left to goal)

Jan 09, 2007

You know that old adage "Good things come in small packages,"?  Well, I am officially one of those SMALL PACKAGES!!!!  I shopped for p.j.s and under garments the other day and every single pair was a small!!!!  There was even one pair that was an extra-small, but I am going to assume it was mis-sized.  So....YAY ME!!!!  

So now all my shirts are smalls, my pajamas are smalls, my jeans are size 8s (hopefully to be a size 6 w/n a month or two if I stick w/my workouts).

I know I have only 6 pounds left to reach my 'goal', but in reality that is just a number.  My true goal is to be in a size 6 jean and maintain that w/o having to overdue it.  Whatever the scales say at that time is fine with me.  I am more concerned about how my body looks and feels than about that number shows up between my toes each morning.

~~ 01-01-07 ~~ 134 lbs (total loss of 101 lbs, 9 pounds left)

Jan 07, 2007

WOW...I finally did it....over 100 pounds lost!!!!!  After a  month of waiting, it finally happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a way to start out the new year.  This is going to be the best year of my life... I can feel it! 


~~ 12-29-06 ~~ 136 lbs (total loss of 99 lbs, 11 pounds left)

Jan 07, 2007

Ok, so I am almost at the 100 pound weight loss mark.  I am sooooo close.  I have been at 136 pounds for the past month.  I know I had originally said I wanted to be down to 125, but in all honesty I would be extremely happy to just loose one measly more pound and call it quits.   
 

I am happy with my weight...I am now working on my body.  I am working out every day trying to tone up.  I am currently in size 8 jeans and size small shirts (can I just say....HOLY SH_T!!!!!!!!).  Even in high school at my smallest I wore a size 10 and a medium shirt!  I want to get to the point where my legs don't rub together when I walk.  It is a distinct possibility that once I am more tone and fit I could very well be in a size 6 (no qualms about that :)   

I am told I have lost too much weight, or that I need to stop loosing weight on a daily basis by co-workers and other acquaintances.  That is the strangest thing to hear, especially considering I am not even one year post op.  I don't think these people are correct though.  In my opinion we as a society have forgotten what "healthy" looks like.  If someone looses weight and becomes "skinny" others around them freak out and say they look sick.  We are so used to seeing overweight and obesity on a daily basis we don't recall what someone should look like when they are of a healthy weight (at least this seems to be very true with the people I know).  So, I just take in all in stride.  I am happy with my weight loss, happy with my decision to have this surgery in the 1st place, happy with my body (for the 1st time in my adult life), and if I happen to loose/gain a few more pounds I will be happy with that also (after all muscle weighs more than fat). 
 

Okay, I will climb down off my soap box now, go eat some healthy eggs for breakfast, have a protein drink, and pop in my work out DVD (wow has life changed). 
 

Oh, by the way...remember that goal outfit I have pictures of me "wearing"?  Well, I finally convinced myself to try it on...............HOLY CRAP......IT FITS!!!!!  I am not ready to take pics of me in it because even though it goes on that doesn't mean it looks good.  After about another month of crunches and squats I hope to feel more comfortable in it and will defiantly post some pictures of me in it for all to see (as I scream from the rooftops). 
 

t~t~f~n
 


~~ 09-14-06 ~~ 151 lbs (total loss of 84 lbs, 31 pounds left)

Jan 07, 2007

Okay, I have been bugged enough for new pics that I finally took some today.  I really wanted to wait until I was under 150 lbs but I think it was just the fear in my head that was keeping me from taking any new ones.  I was secretly afraid that I would not be able to tell any difference in myself from when I took my last pics in April to now.  Our minds are really good at playing tricks on us.  So…I took the pictures and I LOVE THEM!  I must admit I look G-O-O-D!  I am so proud of myself!!!!!!  Take a look and see for yourself.  


About Me
TX
Location
23.0
BMI
RNY
Surgery
01/30/2006
Surgery Date
Jan 25, 2006
Member Since

Before & After
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My official Before Picture, Size 20/22
235lbs
My unoffical After Picture, Size 4/6
130lbs

Friends 47

Latest Blog 36
~10-29-07~
~4-16-07~ 107 pounds lost (3 pounds left to goal)
~1-08-07~ 104 pounds lost (6 pounds left to goal)
~~ 01-01-07 ~~ 134 lbs (total loss of 101 lbs, 9 pounds left)
~~ 12-29-06 ~~ 136 lbs (total loss of 99 lbs, 11 pounds left)
~~ 09-14-06 ~~ 151 lbs (total loss of 84 lbs, 31 pounds left)

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