gingerly1983
I'm sure these all start out the same..but I'll try to shake it up a bit. I have always been on the hefty side. My first realization that I was fat came in the 5th grade. We were playing a game on the computer where you had to input your height and weight and make some sort of character for your game. I don't remember the height, but the weight hit a nerve. I was 180lbs in the 5th grade. That's a grown man! Grr.. My whole family has a weight problem..could be hereditary, could be because mom was a good cook. I dealt with the teasing all through middle school (I think I wore a size 18/20 in 8th grade) and all through high school. I got into several fights and got the rep of 'ass kicker' so only a select few would call me fat. lol C'mon. I knew I was fat...why remind me every day?? Jerks.
Here is where I am at today...I am 25 years old, height: 5'10", weight: 328 lbs. , BMI 47. I am MORBIDLY OBESE. lol...I HATE those 2 words, especially when you stick them together. I am quite active for a larger person, so I don't understand how I have remained the same weight for 3 years in a row. It can't be the food sizes because I have been paying attention to how much I eat compared to how much other people in restaurants eat, and I eat the same or less!! I buy organic food for crying ot loud!! So anyway, I love anything that has to do with water. I'm a pretty avid snorkeler in the warmer months here in Florida. Swimming is a big deal to me, the water makes me feel so at ease. I really really want to be able to dive, but I have a lot of weight to lose before I do that. I am always doing something outdoors; I am definately NOT a couch potato. I am a nurse and am always moving about. How am I still over 300lbs?? It's physically impossible for me to lose weight. I have tried everything imaginable, as I'm sure you all have too. My mother had the gastric bypass several years ago. I was considering that, but then I got to looking around at all the people I knew who had it done, and every one of them have gained their weight back. My mom included. I don't want to got through that to be healthy for a year or two. I have done hours and hours of research on the Lap Band and have finally made my mind up that that is what I want. I am tired of struggling with these COMORBIDITIES. haha another word I absolutely despise!! I have uncontrollable high blood pressure. That one is hereditary. Thanks Dad! I have had it since the age of 16. Sometimes the meds keep it normal, sometimes it doesn't work at all, sometimes it drops me too low so that I am on the verge of passing out. It's a hard struggle. They've tried all sorts of meds. Ya know...I don't want to be on meds anymore. I'm too yound for all that business. Diabetes is pretty strong in my family also. Mom, Dad, Grandma, Uncle, and my sis (she's on the pump, planning the Lap Band also). I'm tired of my legs being swollen every morning when I get off work at the hospital. I'm tired of being out of breath and trickling into an asthma attack when I walk up the hill going TO work. You know how embarrassing it is to come up to the door and have to stop for a few minutes to catch my breath? I'm tired of my boobs making my upper back hurt, and tired of those grooves in my shoulders from my bra straps. I'm sick of the veins in my legs becoming varicose. That's not nice to look at when you're snorkeling. I'm tired of never being able to find cute clothes! Why do department stores think that all plus size women wear solid t-shirts or moo moo dresses? It's so hard to find adequate clothing for someone under 45. I know you guys know what I mean. Places like Lane Bryant....there aren't any 25 year old friendly clothes! They opened a Maurice's here a few months ago. I was uber excited for that! I kept hearing on the radio how it was a hip place for plus size females that wanted to look great. I go into the store, look at the hot outfits and immediately apply for a credit card there. Once I had that temporary authorization in my hand I saw a sign that said they went up to a size 24. DAAAAAANG. I just wasted that credit app. This belly won't wear a size 24. I might could have worn the shirts if these enormous boobs hadn't hindered me. :( I don't ride the rides at the fair anymore. One time my sis and I got in the 'Zipper' and the carnie had to push hard as we sucked in our guts just to get the safety harness to close. We couldn't breathe for the whole ride. I realized then that I wouldn't ever get to ride the rides again. I want to get back on an airplane without the fear of being asked to buy a second seat. How do they make people do that anyway?! That's ridiculous! Maybe they should just bump us to first class so we could have more room and be comfortable ;) Am I right? So anyway...this is where my LapBand journey begins......
