Day 1 of getting back on track.

Dec 23, 2011

     Today turned out to be harder than I thought lol  I got off work at 7 this morning and went walking. +1 point for me!!!  I did 3 laps at the park, which equals to 1.5 miles.  My plan is to steadily increase and get to a minimum of 2 miles at least 3x per week.  It's a hell of a lot better than what I have been doing!    I went home after that and gave myself a fill.  I added 0.5ml and felt some restriction when I drank my Muscle Milk.  I washed the dishes and went to bed.  I woke up around 5:15pm ate a quick snack-picked out a few pieces of sausage from the jambalaya I had made the night before and  hopped in the shower. Everything seemed to be going ok so far.  I got to work and there is CHOCOLATE CAKE in the breakroom for us.  Sweets are my biggest weakness.  I can't resist!!!  I got hungry around 9pm so I ate part of my tuna salad I had brought.  I got fullish (I think) after like 1/2 cup.  It felt good!  Haven't had that feeling in forever!!!  I was hungry again at 12:30, and that stupid chocolate cake kept staring at me!!!  So...I ate a piece and washed it down with milk. Damn it.  Stupid chocolate cake. I hate you.  After that I ate the jambalaya that I left in the work fridge overnight.  It was good and I didn't want to waste it!  It was full of rice, empty carbs, and I ate the bowl full.  It was probably 2 cups.  I didn't feel restriction with that though.  :(  So... that sucks.  I can't do what my mind is telling me to do! WTF!  It's now almost 3am and I have been snacking on nuts- almonds, walnuts, and pecans. That is a good snack so I will not kick myself over it. No more food until I get off work unless I feel like I'm starving and then I'll have my Muscle Milk.   
   So, that's it.  I have been wasting time browsing OH and all the pics I've previously posted. I've been gazing through my before pics and I felt saddened.  Then I started browsing through my after pics and seeing myself slowly shrink in pictures.  I got down pretty small for me!!!  I was 217 at my lowest.  I gained 30 lbs since then. Ughhh!!!!!  I hate this!
   My plans for tomorrow? 
1. Throw out the jambalaya.
2. Pray that someone finishes off the chocolate cake before I return to work tomorrow night.
3. Walk 4 laps at the park.
4. Eat only protein!

I'll update tomorrow to see how it goes. Wish me luck!!!  I'm on a journey to lose 30 lbs!

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