glo187
07/14/08
I have started this journey 2X before. They both ended in 2 beautiful kids. I am now trying for the third time. I hope that this is the one. I feel so ready to do this. My ENTIRE life I have been over weight. I do not know what it is to be "normal". My mother has spent most of my life trying to help me loss weight. I remember going to Over Eaters at the age of 12. I tried all the diets out there. They work but only for a little while. I need to make this change for myself and for my kids. I will not be of any help to them if I can not be involved in there lives. My highest weight was 356lbs. Right now I am at 331lbs. I am tired and my feet are killing me. I have HBP & Diabetes. My Husband is supportive but has his concerns. I feel that the lap band will help me control my hunger and take control of my life. it is amazing how trapped you feel. This body is not what God intended me to have. I am 36 years old and it is time to take control of my body. Well, I have had all the blood work and upper GI done about 3wks ago. Saturday, I seen Dr Krahn. He checked me and asked questions. He thinks if all goes write with the insurance I should have my lap band put on some time in August. I am sooo looking forward to it. I think if I can go through 2 c-sections of pain I can do this. I hope this time it will happen. 
7/15/08
Today I started my protein drinks. I must say this is going to be a challenge for me. I need to really look at what is going in my mouth. Dr Krahn wants me to drink 3 a day. The protein drinks I got at Costco only have 160 cal each. I will fall over if that is all I drink ALL day. I need to find out what else I can eat.
7/31/08
I feel good
I have lost 10 lbs on the protein drinks. I am not starving. I am eating a lot more veggie and salads. I am trying to stay away from carbs. I had my psych eval and now all I need to do is get Med Clarence. I had an EKG done and it was abnormal. So today I have to have an Echo & a stress test on Monday. So I hope all goes well with that. Once that is complete, all I need is approval from the insurance company. I am going to stay positive. I have been thinking alto about the type of surgery to have. I thought I wanted the lap band because it was less on the body. But now I am on the fence again. I really need to talk to Dr. Krahn and decide what is best for me. The first two attempts at this I had decided to go with RNY. I will see what happens. 
8/15/08
Well all my test came out clear. I spoke to the nutritionist as well. I had a slap in the face the other day. I took my kids to the park. I have a 1yr old that does not walk so I took him up to the center of the tower. Once there I was CONFRONTED by a little boy about 4-5years old. He was yelling at me to "Get off you are too fat" I just looked at him and thought wow this is great. All along my daughter is right there listing. I did not say a word to him. He repeated himself like 3x. I felt bad and ashamed. Here I was a grown women and I have a child telling me I am too fat. I hope my surgery date comes SOON.
9/5/08
I stopped drinking the protein drink. I do not know why? I'm stupid that way. I have to see Dr Khran on the 9th and I am sure he will give me an ear full. I have had stress in my life and like every one with a food addiction I go straight for it. I hate myself some times. Why can't I stop?? Why do I do this??
09/11/08
I seen Dr Krahn and I just need one more ultra sound. I hope all this goes by fast. I am getting scared. I just need it done. 
09/17/08
Well I have decided to go with an RNY surgery. I had my last test done yesterday. I called my primary Doc. last week to get the Med Release letter and the 6month of diet. Mind you I have been asking for this to be faxed for over a month. I called again on Friday and they told me they would fax it by en of day. By Monday nothing had come over. I called yesterday and she tells me "I faxed it" I asked her to verify the number and she said "I tossed it". I told her that I did not have the forms and that I needed them. She then asks "what were the forms you needed"? I went crazy. I have asking them for this for over a month and have been told that they have fax them and now they do not know what forms I need. I told again and now she tells me that they are not in my file. So, how did she fax them to me last Friday???? 
I finally spoke to a head nurse and explained the entire thing to her, She said she would take care of it. I can not believe this BS. I hope that this get done. This is all I need to submit to the insurance to get approval. I do not understand how people could be so "whatever" with medical request. Lets see what happens.
I got approved and I have a date of January 15,2009 what a way to start the new year!!!
12/17/08
I started my liquid diet again. I do not know why I am finding it a bit harder this time. My husband is excited for me. I hope that this works for me. I know it has 100% to do with me. I have a co worker that is still trying to convince me not to do the surgery. I do not think that people understand. I have so many emotions going. I'm up then down. Is this the correct thing to do or not. Some days yes some days no. Time will tell. I am @ 326lbs.
01/12/08
Can not believe this, I am days away from my surgery. I know that this is the best thing for me and my family. I am a little scared but am ready for this. If it doesn't kill me it will make me stronger. Jan 15th here we come!!!!! 
03/03/09
Well I did it!! I should say Dr Krahn did it. All went well and I am alive and kicking!!!! Thank you Jesus! I will be 7 weeks out tomorrow and I have lost 35lbs. I am HAPPY!!!! I know it may not be much lost, but it is better off of me then on me. I need to step up my exercise, I need to do more. But baby steps are the way to go. My Life n body will change and it didn't get here in a matter of weeks or months. This is definitely a learning processes. This is one lesson I am willing to take on.
03/26/09
2 1/2 Months out and I have lost 45lbs from my surgery day. i feel good and energy is way up. i love it. Kids love it to. Something has shifted. Up until this week I had not been able to eat very much and food just made me sick, even the smell. But now I feel like I can eat and enjoy it. I must say one side effect of this is my temper runs VERY short by the end of the day. I know that once I get home I do not eat much. I do not know if I need to eat more or it is just my hormones.
4/15/09
Well I am 3month to the day. I seen Dr Krahn on Tuesday and I am down 57lbs from surgery and 62 from the start. I just uploaded some pictures. People see the difference and I see it only in my clothes size. As alot of us I still see the original me. That will take time to change. I am sooo happy i did this. My daughter looks at me and I can see that she is happy that I am getting "healthy" as she calls it. I hope that this helps me to help her learn how to be healthy with food choices and activity. We started a walking club and we walk about 1.5 miles 3 days a week. I take her on her bike and I know this will instill in her the importance of being active. 
6/23/09
I got on the scale last night n I am down a total of 82lbs from surgery. I am at 243lbs. I'm happy!! I can not believe I am at this weight. I love this. i cannot believe the difference. Life is good and I can chase my kids and go for walks. We took my daughter to Disneyland about a month ago and we has a ball. Last year it was hell for me and intern for all of us. But my God this time it was amazing. We really enjoyed it. Thank you God for this surgery. I can feel all my bones, I find that amazing!!
10/06/10
It has been a long time. I am doing great!! In Nov09 I found out I was pregnant. I know I shouldn't have, but it happened and know I have a beautiful baby girl. Sofia was born June 30,2010. This was the BEST pregnancy for me. With the other two I was over 300lbs when I found out I was pregnant and that made for a bad pregnancies. With this baby I only gained 20lbs and it was gone by 3weeks. I was very happy about that. She was born at 7lbs 04oz. It was amazing. Right know I am stuck at 218. I am going to see Dr Krahn tomorrow. I'm sure he will have a lot to say. I also have a bad hernia. I hope that it can be fixed soon. Any ways. I will say it again this was the best thing I ever did for myself!!!!
