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ok day 2 on my new program not bad except i forgot to eat 1 of my "meals" and today my mom and dad finally are here in AZ for the next 7 months woohoo and my mom rocks cause she bought me some awesome Nike workout shoes now i have no excuse i have the shoes to do it now and hope i can muster up the strength and get back in the gym. thats all for my interesting life __________________

today is 10/11 and i'm on day 2 of the 5 day pouch test with NO cheating and its working i peeked at the scale and thus far i've lost the 2 pounds i've gained over the last 4 weeks. And its working on the cravings this time. and i think that i will alternate my days after the end of this test and really try to do more protein shakes and stuff and my plan of not buying crappy food for the kids is working great! they discovered they like cucumbers with some ranch on it and they devour grapes! i must say i'm alittle -itchy right now because i feel like i'm going thru bad carb withdrawls truthfully i am.  but this will pass.    My bm issues were bad today before i could drink my fiber so i have resolved to just make sure to try to get that shake in before i leave the house period!  And i gotta say that my 6 year old son was mad at me just now and mocking me saying "mom poops on herself" which started the little one to follow suit.  That just made me really sad as i have no control over it and they are witnesses to that.   My soon to be ex is coming back to Phx tonight after working in vegas for almost 2 months and let me say that i'm SO excited to pawn the kids off on him! i told him that he owes me 1 month of weekends with his kids because he screwed me by not being here! Well i think thats about it for today

well today and yesterday i'm recommiting myself to a better way of eating. for a snack i had 1/2 and apple with a smidge of peanut butter, ate a meal of melted cheese on a serving of deli ham, another snack of 1 cup of popcorn. WOW i'm in a carb withdrawl but i really feel better. I felt so mad this morning after waking up and my skirt was tight again i hope thats just because i washed and dried it and NOT because i'm getting big again.  And the apple snack was yesterday. when i get alittle hungry later i will have an 1/2 of cucumber with some light balsalmic berry vinagarette.  and i've already had 30 oz of drink and its 130pm so i'm off to fill my 64oz bottle and drink that for a total of 94 oz that day. which included my 35g of protein drink this morning.

Yeah i think getting back to the basics is called for and we shall see if it moves this monday. honestly i didnt excersize yet this week nor last week because of the blues so i gotta jump back on that horse

well today after i drank my "bulking up" fiber, i had a hot starbucks coffee and was cool until 3 hours later. I think i am in the same boat i think its caffeine not my moldy coffee after all. I'm so bummed because i NEED caffeine i have quit so many things smoking, drugs, junk food, had GBS surgery and now i may have to give up my 1 and only vice in this world. I am so sad. Really I'm sad about this and torn too. My Lord i cant catch a break just 1 friggin cup of coffee to perk me up and make me get going in the morning
i'm not sure i can do it. I will try to cut down from 2 cups to only 1 cup and pray that will help. Still I did buy a little 4 cup brewer today sans the mold haha

and your right my 15year old NEEDS to learn how to eat healthy anyway. We went shopping today and she really thinks she still sqeezes into a Large i told her she looks ridiculous in that and she needs to go up a size she had a hellish fit! I began to remind her that now we're in the same size and she screamed at me in the dressing room to "try it on" and see if it fits me. ok i did that, and it fit, she was so mad. she weighs about 169pounds so i'm only what 23 pounds heavier than her now! she cant believe that and totally rebels that she is getting too ah ehm BIG

well looks like i need to get celery i am so mad i have no idea what is going on with me! Nothing i'm gaining weight and i'm on a 6 week of stalldness. i am cancelling my SD trip and just going to get some stuff for my house maybe new floors (laminate hard woods) that'll be better spending my money anyway

i'm just beside myself and i realized i have NO idea how to cook / eat / live healthy. Nice took me 10 months AFTER surgery to figure that out. i cook heavy foods and i have been eating carbs like there is no tomorrow so i think i need to goto the store and buy a bunch of healthier foods, this is so aweful