gonnabethinfinally
Weight and measurements
Nov 07, 2009
First of all after weighing this month my total weight loss is 72lbs and 47 inches gone! WOW thats like losing a grade school child......I am constantly amazed that people are telling me how good I look and how proud they are of me. No one really understands (or believes me) I guess when I tell them I wish I could see what they see. Don't get me wrong I can certainly tell in my face, and of course I know because I feel so much better and my clothes are baggy and I am in smaller sizes. I never dreamed I'd get into another size 18 but I have, or a size 16 but I have, and NEVER NEVER see my butt in a size 14 EVER again but oh my God I have. Before the surgery I was going to go into a size 26-28. But I don't really see....I mean really see. I still look in the mirror and see me with the 72lbs still on. I know Dr. Tom told me and so did Steve, his nurse that its normal for WLS patients to feel this way and that one day maybe when I least expect it I will really see what has happened. I still have another 60lbs to go to get to the goal I have set for myself and I know I will get there but I think right now I am going through some sort of poor pitiful me stage. Well at least my patience is being tried I guess. I'm going through my I want it off now stage again. I really can't wait to finally see what everyone else is commenting on. And don't get me wrong it is very encouraging hearing all the great comments and I do know they are sincere, and its very motivating to hear. I just want to see myself, not through someone elses eyes and comments. How long is it going to take for that to happen? I know I sound depressed but I'm really not I am very happy, happier than I've been in a very long time. And everyone around me has commented on how nice it is that the real me is back. Well so am I. I knew I was miserable in my own skin but I really thought I hid it alot better than I thought I did. But now that my eyes are open again and I look back I can see how unhappy I truly was and I really didn't hide it very well. Now I enjoy my life so much more again. I have truly wasted alot of time being miserable with all this weight on. I would advise anyone to take this step and change their lives for the better. If its possible to have the surgery and help yourself....DO IT! Don't wait!
