Regained ALL my weight.

May 25, 2009

July 2016

14 years since surgery.  I'm at my pre-surgical weight.  I thought about skipping off to Mexico and have a lapband over the gastric bypass.  I remember what my original surgeon said: 65% chance of serious complications including organ failure and even death.  I don't like those odds.  

Then I remember also that I have to follow the food rules like No soda pop-Ever!  And no drink with food, and no calorie beverages like wine, high protein-No carb diet.  I haven't followed those rules in a long time.  So in other words, I have the vehicle, I just need to give it the right fuel.  

Meanwhile, my inner child is screaming I DONT WANT TO FOLLOW ANY STUPID FOOD RULES!  And then it dawned on me... Food was my reward for having to deal with chaos in my family.  But even as a child, there has always been chaos in my life, where my needs and wants have gone unmet for log periods of time because someone else had a chronic medical issue that took the family's resources and focus.  So food was my reward.  

So I need to figure out how to refuel my body without using food for comfort and stress-relief, and get my pouch to re-shrink.  I have to find, and restart the post op diet. Meanwhile, I did become a pastry chef and I'm opening a bakery in Downtown Denver next month.  No self-sabotage going on there, huh?!?

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