I think I'm starting to get it

Sep 17, 2009

It has been 3 1/2 months since my surgery and I'm down 27 lbs.  When I lost 9 lbs before my surgery and 10 more lbs right after surgery I thought I had it made!   But once I started on solids everything came to a screeching halt.  For over the next two months my scale did not move but up 2 lbs and down 2 lbs....over and over again!  It was soooo frustrating!  I keep telling myself I was in bandster hell...and I was...to a certain extent.  Yes, I had no restriction.  No, I did not change my old nasty eating habits.  My thinking was I want to eat what I want, when I want, just in smaller portions.  I was eating things just because I could and that, my friends, is not good. 
I've had 3 fills so far.  I now have 6cc's in a 9cc band.  Most people would think I'd have some sort of restriction.  I don't know what I was expecting to happen but I guess that I would eat and feel that typical fullness I used to feel before surgery and I didn't....so I'd keep eating. 
I think my brain and my stomach finally had a conversation and I think it went something like this:

Stomach:  I'm still hungry...feed me!!!
Brain:  No, baby, you ain't hungry...if you would just slow down and assess you'd see that you are SATISFIED.
Stomach:  Oh....yeah.  Well I guess I am.  How bout that!

Since this conversation has taken place...I've lost like 5 lbs  

Also, I've noticed that they had a conversation about how often I must eat.  I don't feel compelled to eat at certain times a day (except lunch due to having a certain lunch hour).  But I don't feel like I must snack.  I'm trying to listen to my body signals, like stomach grumbles and whatnot.

I hope this is going to start a new beautiful relationship with food that I've never had before.  One that does not involve thinking about it so much.

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