greatexpectations
My story is one with many different themes. I've got more labels than I know what to do with. But because this is an obesity website we shall focus on weight. I haven't had a normal life by any means and so my eating habits have been a bit off too. I was within the normal to overweight range most of my early life. A chubby kid until I went on an intense diet when I was 12 and hit puberty and came out looking really good. I weighed about 139 at 5'8 tall. Things bounced around there to 170 until I was a senior in high school. I became very ill and was put on psychotropic drugs. I gained 20 lbs a month for the first 6 months I was on the medicine. I begged my doctors to listen to me because I didn't know why I was gaining and I was doing everything in my power not to gain. At that point I was 100 lbs over my normal weight and I had a new label, "obese." At that point I kinda gave up. I gained more weight by my own doing because everyone already thought it was totally my fault and I was some sort of piglet who couldn't stop eating and that's why I had gained. This wasn't true of course. Now I'm on a lot of medicines and losing weight is incredibly difficult for me. I can do it but it takes so much out of me that I can't maintain the weight loss or even get past a certain point. Last year I went crazy. I worked out 2 hours a day intensely for 6-7 days a week from November of 2007 to May of 2008. I went from 310 to 250s. I barely ate. I would eat around 500 calories a day. And I felt a lot of anxiety during that time because I was so tired from working out and not getting enough food. When I couldn't manage to get past the 250s and everytime I did eat a real meal I'd gain 5 lbs, I gave up. Not to say I went off stuffing my face, but I relaxed into a "normal" diet. The kind average people have without having much weight gain. But I gained a terrible amount. On May 14th 2009 I had RNY gastric bypass with Dr. Kennedy at Baylor in Dallas. I recovered very well from the surgery and now i'm just adjusting to the change in my life and hoping that this will work and I will lose the weight. It's coming off more slowly than I had anticipated but I'm not following the rules perfectly either. So far though, this has been an excellent decision. I physically feel better, I am just waiting to look better.
