greatexpectations
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Aug 22, 2009
...I am lazy....I need to lose 80 lbs.
...More people than not are overweight or obese. So you'd think discrimination would be reduced right? It is not acceptable to be fat. Statistics prove you are more likely to make less money, have less education and be depressed. A lot of fat people hate other fat people. They hate themselves. So they take it out on other people. Or they lose weight and then they get their chance to be the snobby girl who can make fun of others. It's shameful.
...Even my therapist told me weight was a big deal. She said people are going to judge you. That's just how it is. It was annoying coming from her because she is a tiny blonde who giggles at everything and is like, look at my new purse! So i'm kinda bleh about that.
...I believe the surgery has helped me as much as it can. Now it's up to me. My current environment is not so great. I don't get to control what comes into the house and I have people around me forcing food on me. I think when I move and am on my own I will be able to keep just what I need in the house. And I will be too broke to buy other stuff.
...I've got my eating habits under control I'm just making bad decisions. It's not hard anymore. I am just lazy.
...I am very worried that if I don't lose weight my ability to get a good job will be compromised. The jobs I want require me to be presentable and professional looking. I look sloppy in clothes.
...I've got this great guy. And I want to be beautiful for him. I want him to be proud to introduce me to people and I want them to think he got a catch instead of he settled or she must have a really good personality.
...I got to get stuff figured out.
