Nearly 100!

Jan 13, 2010

Life is going really good. It's been 8 months since surgery. I've lost nearly 100 lbs. I am aiming for another 40 by my 1 year anniversary. I had my gallbladder taken out in November. Doing fine since then. My bloodwork came back good except I was a little low in vitamin D. I don't get in my protein. I don't even try really. I puke most everything up. I eat sometimes, maybe once a day, sometimes not at all. I always prefer to eat at home since throwing up in the public bathrooms always elicits stares. I really enjoy throwing up at home in a tall plastic see thru cup. That way when i'm done I can see all the food and calories I didn't get. I guess maybe that sounds sick but I like throwing up. I feel in control and relieved when I do it. I get to taste the foods I want and not worry about the calories. I wish i'd figured this out before. I bet I could have lost the weight just by this alone, but I would have nasty stomach acids, which I don't have now because of the surgery. My boyfriend knows I throw up pretty often. I tell him it's because I've overeaten. And usually it is. But do I try to not overeat? I don't stuff a whole 12 ounce meal down and then throw up. I eat about 5 ounces then purge. Then 5 more ounces, then purge. And again. And I get to have a whole meal without problems. I see that it's a total waste of food. But oh well. I'm very happy with the way things are. And i'm sure i'll lose 40 more if I keep trying. I will be under 200 in a few months. :)

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