HaloEcho
What to write for my story? It is, in many ways, like much of the stories on this site. I've been dealing with weight issues since I was probably 11 yrs old. Even when I wasn't overweight as a teenager, I had many self-esteem issues, and was always "big." I was fairly tall, and felt like I just didn't fit in with the other girls my age. I grew up a very tiny town (about 500 people), which made it harder because there weren't too many people to compare to. Though I was very active in school, I never seemed to be able to get down to a thin weight. After high school, I was no longer involved in sports & activities and my weight climbed and climbed. Thus began an out-of-control cycle of diets, losing, gaining, self-loathing, self-pity, frustration, denial, yo-yo's, triumphs, ect. I've come to the decision to have WLS because I know that I cannot get the weight off and keep it off myself. I know I need to change the way I look at and interact with food, and am looking forward to my WLS being a tool to use along with my emotional and spiritual evolution into the person I want to be.
Update: Obviously I've had my surgery, and while I didn't want to get rid of what I wrote when I first joined, I thought I would add a little. So far life with my sleeve has been great, though not always easy. The weight is coming off pretty easily right now, and I feel better every day. I remember what it was like the last time I lost a lot of weight. It was like waking up on Christmas morning every day, because you were this person you didn't even really recognize, and it felt good. I'm not quite there yet, but I'm looking forward to it more & more.
As for my family, we are all doing great. My darling husband continues to be a source of wonderful support and encouragement. He's even given up some favorites in order to "take one for the team." I think it amazes him some of the things he never really knew or noticed about my relationship with food. Now that I'm improving, it's easier to talk to him about. My oldest DD is in kindergarten, and it's been GREAT!! She absolutely loves it there, and I get so much more done at home. Now she loves to lay in bed at night and tell me all about her day. We have so much fun. My twins are just more precious every day. They talk and talk, sometimes they are wonderful to each other and sometimes they fight like cats & dogs. But they always love their mommy!! They've been facinated with my incisions, and still think they're going to hurt my tummy sometimes, so they're careful around me. It's very cute. And our furbabies (a beagle and a mutt) are still keeping us busy and eating us into the poorhouse. So we're mostly just going through every day, trying to work through the bad economy and over-priced eveything. All in all things are pretty fabulous!
