Month 5...late again!

Dec 16, 2008

Well, I didn't take 4 month pix because I left the cord to charge my camera at my mom's in ND and didn't get them done in time.  But no good excuses for not blogging last month.  Other than the fact that I'm busy living life instead of living on this site waiting for life to begin!  Though I still love OH and my dear friends here as much as ever.  Just finding more and more things I'm able to do now that require I get off my ass and do them!

Five months out from surgery and I'm much further along than I had ever dreamed possible.  I know it's not all about the numbers on the scale, but I can't help but be amazed at weighing in the 180's (187.2 on the Wii this week) rather than the 200's.  I've only been below 200 a handful of times since starting college in 1994, and they were all short lived...sometimes as short as 2 wks!  To not only be maintaining in the 100's but still losing is a miracle to me.  My size is decreasing slower now, but still going down.  I only do measurements ever 3 months, so next month we'll see how many inches I've lost.  But yesterday I put on my DH's jeans by accident, and they fit just fine!  He's always been smaller than me, so this is a big deal to me.  I don't yet weigh less than him, but am a little taller therefore we're about the same size now.  I'm figuring by 6-7 months out I will officially be below him on the scale and staying that way.  But I'm plumping him up w/cookies and high-fat suppers just to make it easier on myself! ;-)

At about 3 months out I really started to lose my hair.  It has been kind of hard to take, because at 50lbs lost I got it cut shorter than I've had it in years (and not on purpose...the hairdresser didn't understand what I was telling her, but I like it).  My mom said it was about time I got a grown-up cut anyway.  Guess the daily ponytail was getting old.  Anyway, my hair has thinned out to a point that I've gotten a bit worried.  Not to mention there is hair all over everything in my house!  But it seems to be slowing down, and I've started using some ridiculously expensive shampoo & conditioner (Nioxin) to help it grow back faster.  So I've gone from the fat girl w/the long beautiful hair to the thinning girl w/the short dark hair.  I can deal with that!

Other than that, I'm enjoying all the same NSV's that many of us talk about: having more energy, getting to play w/my kids, doing more around the house, shopping in my closet, fitting into new clothes, not having to "squeeze" into tight spaces, compliments all the time, better relations w/my DH, and so on.  There are some drawbacks, like the excess skin issues.  I would probably be a full size smaller if it wasn't for the skin, and even clothes that fit me well don't always look good because I have the same rolls on the stomach...they're just mostly skin now instead of fat.  I'm sure they will shrink a little more as I get to goal, but they definitely won't be resolved unless I have surgery on them.  That's not going to be finacially feasible for a while, but I'm not stressing about it yet.  Any way you look at it, I'm so happy I decided to have this surgery, and still am completely grateful to Susan (a fellow OH'er) who recommended me looking into the VSG.  I know I would have researched it myself, but it was her glowing recommendation that led me to consider it where I might have been scared away by the concept of having a major portion of my stomach CUT OUT!  Thanks Susan...you rock!

As this year comes to an end, I've been reflecting on where I was last Christmas, and how different my life has become this year.  No, all my issues are not resolved because of this surgery.  But my most constant daily concerns have been removed, food and weight.  At least for now, I feel like I can breath.  With this site, my surgeon, my support groups & my HP, I can do anything!!

*Angel
   

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