Diana Blackburn
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Hammerhead1960's Blog Hammerhead1960's Blog [Add Post] Got my Surgery Date: 3/23/09[Edit Post] 1 hour ago Published I will believe it when it happens as this has been a 6 year adventure for me. I am so excited! It is has been so long since I have been able to just bend over and tie a shoe. My weight began to slowly creep on me over the years but the most of my weight came from pregnancy. I had gained over 60 pounds with each child (2) and never really lost all the weight to begin with after the 1st pregnancy and then 2 years later: another 60 pounds and since then it has been a struggle. The smallest weight I got to was 175 and honestly looked good at 175 but was still 40 pounds heavier than I was when I got married at 17. I am now 49 years old, My children are 29 and 27 and I weight more now than I ever did being pregnant. 230 pounds was the highest weight during my pregancy. I find it hard to believe that I let myself get in this shape to begin with but I did. After 20 years of Marriage and then a divorce you would think I could have lost the weight but instead I continued to gain. Maybe depression had something to do with it. I would not take any of those drugs to help with depression, I choose to believe that I was fine. I have convinced myself that I don't eat that much and I don't, it is just what I am eating and the lack of any exercise that causes me to stay at the weight of 300 pounds. How horrifying that is to actually put this on a blog but reality has to hit home that "hey" wake up and get something done or you will not be around to see your little grandbaby grow up. Over the last 15 years is when the weight really starting to add up b/c the change in my employment. I work now in a call center and for those that work in call centers, well you know all you do is sit all day. I have always loved being outside but with all this weight, I was ashamed to wear shorts, I quit swimming b/c I will not get in a swimsuit for anyone to poke and make fun of me. My husband right now does enough of that!. I remarried 5 years ago after being divorced in 1997. That transition has not been an easy one either, but I am happy. The greatest joy in my life right now is my soon to be 2 year old granddaughter. I look forward to losing this weight so that I can teach her how to swim and take her to amusement ride parks and just be a fun Nanny for her. I know I will feel better once this weight comes off. I won't have to take my Diabetes medicine any longer or my Blood Pressure medications. Getting the weight off and getting off the medications will be my 2nd joy in life. Dr. Nease is Wonderful. He is pleasant to talk to and very concerned for his patients. I Thank God for this man and his talent to help the obese live a better and more productive life. I cannot wait to update this Blog after the surgery. I truly feel greatful for obesityhelp.com and all the wonderful people who have all the emotions that i have and that they are willing to share and be supportive. Diana |
